Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Special Guest Star

| Now Playing: Strangers by Sigrid |

Just like in the movies,
It starts to rain and we...
We're the broken beauties,
Blindfolded minds collide and we fall...
When the curtain drops,
Our touch is just a touch.
Not like in the movies,
Our story's after the end like

Strangers
Perfect pretenders
We're falling head over heels,
For something that ain't real.
It could never be us,
Hey, just you and I

Strangers
Perfect pretenders
We're falling head over heels,
For something that ain't real.
It could never be us,
Hey, just you and I
________________________________________________________

So, Christmas has come and gone, and it's just been a wave of emotions. I sit here on Wednesday night, feeling every bit of my Carrie Bradshaw fantasy, just sort of in awe of everything that I've felt over the past few days. From literally hanging on to my last few dollars before payday, to the emotional woes brought on from Christmas, all the way to today's unexpected woes and elation. It's just been a lot, but I'm super thankful that the ending to the past couple days have been much less rocky than the start.

To start, Christmas. The lead up to Christmas was a lot. I only worked a four hour shift on Sunday,  and it was busy, but not nearly as busy as Saturday, which I'm eternally grateful for. It went by in a flash, and I actually had people to help me again. And by the time it was over, Christmas Eve was lit. Literally, because I was drinking for the third night in a row haha. I started drinking screwdrivers with my grandma, and then my grandpa joined us with his Crown and Coke, and then the music was brought out, and the party began haha. I never ever want to forget this Christmas Eve. It was just so joyful and full of fun and love, I can't get over it. We just listened to music spanning from the 50's to the 80's, ending in me rapping my ass off for them haha. It was just a lot of fun, and something I really will look back on as one of the best Holiday themed nights of my life. Plus, that big "exciting" gift that my grandparents have been baiting me with? My grandma wanted to give it to me that night, and it ended up being a record player. How long have I gone now with having Taylor Swift vinyls to play but no record player? Now, I can't say that haha. I'm just super grateful for it and to have them in my life, I truly can't express it enough.

Then, the next morning. I finally got a decent time out of my mom about when I should head down there. So, I got up after setting a modest alarm, but when I pulled into the driveway at about ten on the dot, no one was home. I hoped, and was thankful that my assumptions panned out, that my brother was at least home, so that prevented from me waiting in the cold or in my car. And i get that because of the snow and the mountains that Shawn's kids live on that it took long, but it was after 11 by the time they got to the house, and I was crunched on time because of the late start to the festivities, so I was a little miffed, but still trying to get into the groove. Only, it didn't feel like I was well received? It just felt like, the entire time, like I was a guest at this families Christmas, like I wasn't a part of it? It's really hard to describe accurately without me coming off like some sort of ungrateful brat, but I just felt like a fly on the wall, invited guest that was interrupting their Christmas. It was all about Shawn and his kids, and that's all fine and well, but...I'm here too?? And I knew that this Christmas was going to be hard to top after last year, being back at home, living there, no significant others to bring the vibe down from any party. But it just didn't feel like I was supposed to be there. And that has nothing to do with the gifts, I could care less about getting gifts. I just, felt like a guest,  and that's not how I would expect or like to feel considering the fact that it was my mother's house.

Leaving there, Christmas with everyone back at my grandparents, my house, was great. Ayden was freaking adorable as usual and really makes me want a child of my own, and everyone was just great to be around. It's sort of what I wanted to feel at my mom's, but ya know. I got like a 100 bucks, which ended up getting me the best gift I've ever given myself haha, and some great clothes and stuff to wear to work, which I super needed. It was just a great night. Mom got me this notebook from the Red era that's out of print, that I was SUPER excited about. Plus some songbooks so I can further my desire to learn guitar. In retrospect, in was a goodnight. Work after all that, was too much. I was over it and I was so ready to be off today. You know, same old stuff, expected to do the work of four, but ya know. Especially annoying considering that it was, oh, you know, the day after Christmas...

But, one good thing was, I got paid Tuesday, finally, after literally having 47 cents to my name before my check went in. And I decided to treat myself a little and get myself some Christmas presents of my own. I can't tell you how excited I was when I learned that we had, and that the creators had changed their minds, the 18th season of the Simpsons on DVD at work. So I bought that and a 2018 Taylor Swift calendar because, I mean, come on. And then, randomly, I was checking the Facebook Marketplace, not even for anything in particular, when I stumbled on someone selling an iMac from 2008...for 175 dollars. Like...what? That's insane. And I really didn't think I would be sitting here today, an owner of an iMac, but here I am? I had a good feeling about it and met with the guy (with my grandma coming with because I know better than to go alone) and bought it...and I'm using it for the first time to type this blog. How is that even real life? I've been wanting an Apple computer for literally the longest time now, and now that I have one, even if it is a used older model, blows my mind. I'm in love with it and I'm speechless over it. Another gift for myself, I know, but I really needed a new computer, and for 175, and it's a Mac?? Literally can't beat it.

I got together with Benzo today, because both of us happened to be off. I was trying to see Pitch Perfect 3 with Faith Rose but that didn't pan out, plus she had some family stuff to attend to, so it all worked out in the end. And while we were getting ready to get together, she ordered me a gift from work and had it available for pickup, and I was itching to know what it was. We get to the store, and the bitch bought me an Apple TV. I'm not shitting you, another Apple thing that I've been wanting for a long ass time. Bitch always comes through. I love her so much. So literally, this Post-Christmas was sponsored by Apple haha. I'm in love with the Apple TV, it's so easy to use, and now I can start buying more digital stuff and leave the DVDs in the past. Except Grey's, Simpsons, and maybe Will & Grace. Benzo and I got Alejandro's, after we went to AT&T and got her an iPhone X! Both super wonderful events haha.

And, on Christmas Day, I asked Allen what he was doing this weekend for the New Year, and he read my mind and asked about us getting together for New Years. And then he read my mind again Tuesday, after I was talking to Sam in Asset about wanting to go to a wine tasting, and then later that night...he asked if I wanted to go to a wine tasting with him Friday haha. The guy's just really great. I actually bought him a Christmas gift during this Post-Christmas joy, so I'm hoping to surprise him by telling him about it this weekend. So basically what I'm saying is Christmas was a little rocky, but Post-Christmas, as I'm officially coining it this year, was amazing. Maybe next year can be a little easier, but honestly, Post-Christmas for the win. I'm just super thankful for this year and everything I've been blessed with, that honestly, I can't really ask for much more.

Guest starring this Christmas but being billed as Main Cast during Post-Christmas,

-- Justin

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