Thursday, May 17, 2018

Oh Boy!

| Now Playing: Better With You by Jesse McCartney |

I know it's ugly turning on the news,
There's people fighting over point of view,
Sometimes it's like there's nothing left to lose.
And I don't know what to do,
But I know it's better with you.

I was a wreck when you came along,
When there was nothing left,
You showed me the best.
I'm still a mess but you hold on,
Don't know just why you do,
But I know I'm better with you.

But I know I'm better with you,
I know I'm better with you,
But I know I'm better with you.

For every laugh there is a silent cry,
For every day there is a darker night,
Sometimes it's like life doesn't treat us right.
And I don't know what to do,
But I know it's better with you.

I know I'm better with you.
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This blogging thing, let me tell ya. I've been slacking and slacking and slacking. Just life has been so crazy and hectic that I just haven't had time to even rest. I always feel like I'm go go go all the time. So what's all happened since the last time I posted in this thing?

Well, my boyfriend and I have gotten even closer. To me that seems impossible, but it's true. I just love him so much and this feels like the first time I've truly been in love, ya know? It's just been wonderful. We went to the Panic at the Lux event, went to an empty Park, watched Death Becomes Her, and just really enjoyed each other.

Work, has been a lot. I think that has a lot to do with why I feel so out of whack lately. I go from these intense extremes when I'm work, that it's literally pulling out all my energy. I have done some writing here and there, but because work is getting so relentlessly predictable and everything is staying the same for the worst, I tend to alleviate by spending time with my boyfriend and literally staying gone all weekend that writing has taken a way side. But I've got a lot of writing up in my head, so that's helping.

Honestly that's about it. My videos are doing well, reputation Tour is a wonderful thing, and I've just been sort of trying to escape everything from work. I got drunk last night and had a wonderful time filming a video of reacting to All Too Well, and cleaning my room. Oh, and I got an AC unit for my room.

I can't be bothered to be honest. More as things progress and hopefully calm down at work!

Exclaiming the new bitch phrase,

-- Justin

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Dick-Bringing Friend (How Dare You!)

| Now Playing: B by Todrick Hall |

Who was doing all the cooking, doing all the cleaning?
Who was making sure the cookies' always good for eating?
Who was there putting it down every evening
Even when you was leaving for no reason each time your phone was ringing?
And who was there making your friends wish that they could be you?
The game is done, You's a bum, I ain't finna feed you.
Take your shit out of the Benz you ain't got the key to.
I don't need you, kiss my ass while I pack and leave you.

Oh honey you fucked up real big this time,
Never get another bitch looking this fine.
Don't let the doorknob hit you,
Take your sidechick with you.
Tick tock,
Kick rocks, rocks.

Bitch I was your B, bitch I was your Yonce.
Bitch I was your B, bitch I was your Yonce.
Bitch I was your B, bitch I was your Yonce.
Bitch I was, bitch I was, bitch I, bitch I was your Yonce.
Bitch I was a ten, bitch you was a five, nah four.
Bitch I was a win, pussy most men would die for.
Bitch I had you in positions she couldn't apply for.
Why you have to lie for? I'm bored.
Bitch I'm Louboutin, I ain't fucking with Payless no more.
I'm a G6, I ain't flying with Southwest no more.
Bitch your ass is broke, I ain't looking to invest no more.
Bitch I was your Marilyn, you can't blow up my dress no more.
Could've been your Madonna,
Now who gone tell your mama?
You lost a bomb ass bitch,
Killing like Rihanna.
Hair like Arianna, Thick like a grown Moana.
Hope you're happy with Melania 'cause you lost Michelle Obama.
Eat it.
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It's so damn hot in my room as I'm typing this, that I'm really struggling to piece together a coherent thought, but here comes the blog anyway haha. So after the last blog, I pretty much headed down to my boyfriend's because he asked me if I wanted to go ahead and come over, so I did. I'm trying to even remember everything through the current state of my overheated psyche, but I know we got a little too drunk, and even more so when West got home. I think we ended up watching some Golden Girls I think? And we were talking about our costumes for the party on Saturday. Oh, and I talked about how he would have a musical called Naps because of his tendency to...well, nap haha. How Dare You! is a song we kept singing / talking about throughout the weekend, so that happened. And when he was talking about seeing Once On This Island in New York, he talked about being a DBF for his friend Eva and I was like what the hell is that a dick-bringing friend? We got a barrel of laughs out of that. It stands for designated boyfriend for those wondering, because a bitch had no clue haha.

We watched some Golden Girls before bed, the "Do you have something to show me?" dream sort of came true, and we called it a night. He talked about how happy I make him, and honestly, it just feels so good to be with him. Not to make this a like praise me sort of blog, but I'm just so happy when we're together. He makes me want to be a better a person, a happier person, a inspiring person. He's just the best and I love him a lot.

Saturday morning we got to sleep in, and we got some Subway (I'm totally obsessed with the new wraps they have now, do yourself a favor and get the southwestern steak and cheese on tomato basil NOW) came back, watched some Golden Girls like we do. I fell asleep during it, so we went back to the bedroom and took a solid two-hour nap haha. He's rubbing off on me. Then we started getting ready for the Disney Night, and I realized I forgot my purple shirt, so we went to Walmart to get me one and then hustled back. We didn't get quite as turnt as we did Friday, but we had a good time. Lisette was Pocahontas and Kelly was Mulan, it was fun haha. We played Paranoia, which was super fun to get to bring from YouTube haha, then Kings: Truth or Dare edition, followed by BS. Just a good time haha. Then Sunday we hung out, watched some Superstore, went and saw Infinity War, which was pretty incredible, got some food from Macado's where our service was literally ridiculous, and then Allen packed and I left when he was leaving for Richmond to prepare for his interview Monday.

And then Sunday night my stomach was hurting until about 3AM so I called in. I had just enough energy to go to Kia, feel like I was going to get a car, test drove one of the Forte's I love so much, and then the bank said I owed too much and shut it down, I was bummed, but Allen was so super sweet about it and cheered me up, honestly make me cry in the best way, God, I love that man. And his interview went really well! I think so at least, even if I have to feel that way for him haha. From what he told me, it seems great. Finger crossed that this works out for him!

Even though I called out, I was asked to go to Bonsack to help them out Tuesday. I only agreed because it was with Destiny and I won't even get into how rude the people there are. Let's just say they need to watch who they serve their attitudes to because this bitch is the wrong one. We went there again today, but Destiny was off so Pam took her place. Today wasn't as bad, because we finished the freight and ended up going back to Salem because I told Thy they just wanted us to zone. I love when I get my way because my way makes more sense.

Which leads us to now with this heat. I'm over it. I can not do this. Jesus be a raindrop or a central air. I can not do this. I am not tropical or a damn Toucan. Shit, shit.

A fan of my version of DBFs and making up musicals,

-- Justin