Now Playing: Okay by Lany & Julia Michaels
I bought the pillow on the couch ‘cause it reminded
Me of the colors on your wall, I thought you’d like it
I don’t want this to be my last time in this apartment
Ooh
You took a day and made some space for me to move in
Said I could take the bottom drawer so that’s what I did
You told me I was all you want, so now what’s changed it?
Ooh
Is it wrong to think you’re sadistic?
I know you’re sleeping perfect
While I’m over here hurting
I’m gonna be okay, right?
I’m gonna be okay, right?
I wish I could tell myself that at night
I’m gonna be okay, right?
Don’t check my phone, I know for sure you haven’t called me
I fill my days with stupid shit to keep me busy
Instead of you I’m ending every night with whiskey
Ooh
Ooh, I kind of knew this would hurt just a little too much
Ooh, Ooh
I kind of knew this would hurt just a little too much
I’m gonna be okay, right?
I’m gonna be okay, right?
I wish I could tell myself that at night
I’m gonna be okay, right?
And if I go insane, I
I got you to blame, right?
At least that’s what I tell myself at night
I’m gonna be okay, right?
Right, right, right.
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Hello! So this week has been interesting to say the least. Work this week was another long week, six days in a row, but it didn’t feel nearly as bad as the last time. Work’s just been a lot lately because there’s all this work to do but I’m only one person and can’t do it all and I can’t rely on literally anyone else to make it happen the way I would like it too. Plus, my handheld stopped working on Friday, so that’s a thing now. I guess I just wait to be assigned another one? Who the hell knows, honestly.
Monday and Thursday at work, I’m telling you. Those were the two hardest days this week. Just a bunch of crap if I’m being honest. Thursday I just had so much to do, and the customers were riding me all day, and it was just enough. Thank God I was off this Monday when this blog posts, because what I really didn’t need was a fourth bad Monday in a row at work. But we’re getting closer and closer to Massanutten, and a bitch is ready, willing and able. Cain and Abel. I’m so fucking ready.
We went to two different apartment places this week, but it turned out semi okay? Like the first place we went to I guess is still an option, but only one specific apartment, so that’ll be the hassle there, trying to get that specific apartment available to us. The second place was just a no. The prices were higher than on their website, and the space is pretty small, or at least smaller than we’re willing to compromise for. We’re gonna go to Honey Brook sometime this week I think, just to see, but Lord, is it getting exhausting. I know Allen’s feeling it too, it’s a mutual feeling. It just seems like we’re never going to find a place. I know we will, it’s just seeing it would be really nice right about now.
I ended up taking some relaxation time and making some new Sims on Sims 4. There’s just something so relaxing about creating Sims and their outfits and then building their house and putting everything in it. I don’t know, it’s just super relaxing and I’m super into it. I just really appreciate being able to take a second every once in a while and just relax with the Sims a bit. Speaking of the Sims, on my day off Monday, I ended up finding, I think, a really good recording software so I can make my dream of having a gaming channel a reality haha. We’re still a ways off from being able to record Switch games, but it’s a start. And I’ve always wanted a Sims 4 Let’s Play anyways. I already have a name for the series, and I created twins (inspired by my Fire Emblem inspired novel I want to write) Ingrid and Eugene, and then another character named Casper and those will be my main Sims. I even created an intro for the gaming channel, so I’m excited. I’m just trying to plan everything out. First I have to test the recording software while actually playing the Sims, and then we can move on to the next time, which is playing for real haha.
Then the Cinqo De Mayo celebrating happened haha. So after I got off work Saturday, we were sort of having a get together at the house, which ended up being a bust because people are the worst. But it turned into something anyways. One of the neighbors was just...weird and it was making me sort of uncomfortable at first but then angry and off-putting. I mean there isn’t much to say other than we ended up playing Jackbox games for a bit (Thanks Joseph Birdsong) and then we ended up going back over there and ended up dancing and listening to music until 5am so...happy Cinqo De Mayo? Haha. We slept in super later since we didn’t go to bed until super late, and spent all of Sunday recovering. Oh, we watched that new Ted Bundy movie in Netflix with Zac Efron in it. That was a time.
And Monday all I really did was my errands, which consisted of taking the books from the contest winners back to the post office to mail again, and then I finished chapter fourteen of Book Two! I’m so happy with where it’s going and the themes that are lurking about. Not to mention, my author friend Tamara Rokicki let me be part of a campaign for her new anthology and we did a little interview on my end, so that should be coming out soon. That makes up for finding out that my book didn’t when that self published contest I entered. I found out Thursday, but at least I’m still trying to make it happen.
Other than that, I’m ready for Massanutten, I’m ready for the beach, and I’m ready for Taylor Swift to tel us the name of her damn album! At least the album date so I can ask off of work because needed. Oh, and the title of this blog 😂😂something Allen and I came up with for our team name when we play Smash because he’s always Peach and I’m always pink Robin. Iconic haha.
Until next time,
— Justin
