Wednesday, November 29, 2017

The Flamboyant Return Of Veronica Lodge

| Now Playing: Dancing With Our Hands Tied by Taylor Swift |

I, I loved you in spite of
Deep fears that the world would divide us
So baby can we dance,
Oh through an avalanche and
Say, Say that we got it, I'm a,
Mess but I'm the mess that you wanted.
Oh, 'cause it's gravity
Oh, keeping you with me

I could've spend forever with your hands in my pockets,
Picture of your face in an invisible locket.
You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it,
I had a, bad feeling.
And darling you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis,
People started talking, putting us through our paces.
I knew there was no one in the world who could take it,
I had a, bad feeling.

But we were dancing,
Dancing with our, hands tied, hands tied
Yeah we were dancing,
Like it was the, first time, first time
Yeah we were dancing,
Dancing with our, hands tied, hands tied,
Yeah were were dancing,
And I had a, bad feeling
But we were dancing.

I'd kiss you as the lights when out,
Swaying as the room burned down.
I'd hold you as the water rushes in,
If I could dance with you again.
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At this point, is it even shocking that there's another Taylor Swift song in the NP? There shouldn't be, because literally what else would I be listening to when there's a brand new Taylor Swift album out there, thriving in the world? Exactly, nothing. With that being said, this blog has both had a lot happen, and then also nothing at all? It's very strange. I feel like a lot has happened in the last four days, since I'm actually writing this on Thursday evening, because I literally couldn't be bothered to pull my shit together and get this blog conceived on Wednesday. But alas, here lies Jesse's motivation.

So since I couldn't be bothered on Saturday to post a blog, and Sunday was included in my last blog, we're starting with Monday for a chance, which is strange, but here goes. So Monday was yet another day at work, and it's been like most, where I spend most of my work day in the backroom, really trying to get the overstock and freight under control, even though any effort has proven to be futile. If I remember correctly, I spent the entire day in the backroom, capping and making room for the overstock. I was able to get three pallets to work there way into the 9 bins, but it still left so much. And I also spent lunch in the break room with Faith Rose, because Destiny is awesome, but the mashed potatoes from the deli, in a rare off moment, were not. We found out that our bonus was going to be on the next check, so it was perfect ticket happened time! Once I came home, I was battling with the same person I have been for a while now for first place for tickets, and after I was finished with all of my boosts, they still slid ahead. So I did what any rational Swiftie would do. I bought more merch and slid into first place haha. I went looking online, and found out that the boosts portal would close at noon on Tuesday, so I was a shoe-in unless the person bought merch like I did. But I was lucky enough TO LOCK IN FIRST PLACE. I literally have no idea how, but yeah. That's a thing that happened.

Tuesday was fun in the morning, only because I was doing the same thing in the backroom and KFC had its reopening and me and LunchCrew, minus Teresa, added Amber and Wendy, went there for lunch and we had a good integrity ridden time. Plus the new innards of KFC are awesome. It looks so great in there. But once I came back from lunch is when the apocalypse took it's meaty hands to my throat. I came back and Devin told me that I needed to let him reclaim his Pick Up bins, saying Seanathan Michael Preston told him that he was getting them back. And since they were full of toys, I was like what the hell is going on. Then I'm hearing in passing that I'm getting all my overstocked moved to one of the trailers outside, bins are being made in the trailer, so that everything can be binned in, and I'll have to cap them every morning. Literally, hell broke loose while I went to lunch. So I spent the rest of the day with Preston out in the bins, with some guest starring from Lloyd, and just really fucking up my lungs from the dirt and dust. Actually though, my lungs have been fucked up ever since, and I feel like I have a cold, like a scratchy throat. It's fucking dumb. But yeah, then Lloyd left us (HE LEFT US...HE LEFT US! name that movie and you get cool points) and Sharie helped us finish. I left relatively on time because I had decided once I got paid, I was FINALLY getting my haircut (Thanks Angela!) and buying hair dye to get it back to black by Amy Winehouse. But I also had shopping for my grandma to do.

Once I got home, I got to work on my hair, because a bitch needed it. And I'm so glad to be back to my badass black-headed self. Here's some before and after, because bitch, Veronica Lodge is back.



Then my ass stayed up a little bit, I don't even remember what I watched or did to be honest.

Yesterday, I did a lot of things. OH! Tuesday night, I got an audition for my book's audiobook! This guy was FUCKING ME UP with both how he was reading certain things in my audition script, and how perfectly he captured one certain character's spirit. It was so exciting! So Wendesday, I sent him the full manuscript, finally finished typing up chapter seven, plotted out the entirety of chapter eight, and went on a little exercise walk. I was a busy bitch haha. Then I winded down with some Super Mario Odyssey, finished the main game, and then went to bed with That '70s Show, which was hard to do because I had eaten too much spaghetti, my throat was bothering me full force from the dirt and dust in the trailer, I assume, and yeah. It was just a mess. Even though it's Thursday right now, I'm gonna save today for the next blog, and try and get some semblance back to these blogs haha.

More Veronica Lodge than human,

-- Jesse

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Helociraptor

| Now Playing: Delicate by Taylor Swift |

Dive bar on the east side,
Where you at?
Phone lights up my nightstand in the black.
Come here you can meet me in the back.
Dark jeans and your Nikes,
Look at you.
Oh damn never seen that color blue.
Just think of the fun things we could do.

'Cause I like you.

This ain't for the best,
My reputation's never been worse so,
You must like me for me.
Yeah I want you.
We can't make,
Any promises now can we babe?
But you can make me a drink.

Is it cool that I said all that?

Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate.
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate.
Isn't it, isn't, isn't?
Isn't?
Isn't, isn't, isn't?
Isn't, delicate?
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Surprise! Another blog that's not daily and another blog not posted on time. I'm thinking about changing my blogging days from Wednesday and Saturday to Wednesday and Sunday. But we'll see, I haven't fully decided yet. I still really love the whole Wed/Sat format, but I don't know. All in due time, Rebecca. So these past few days have been the real testament on my nerves, so let's get into this gig, henny.

The dreaded day had finally arrived. Thanksgiving. It's so sad, but working in retail, and in management in general, has completely killed off whatever holiday spirit that once remained in my feeble holiday season vessel when I worked at the liquor store. We actually got holidays, as in plural, there, and it really made me appreciate the holiday season, since I actually got to enjoy it. But that is no more. Anyway, the night before, Wednesday night, I honestly couldn't tell you what I did. I know that I slept pretty amazing despite the fear that the forthcoming night was going to be drenched in disorganization and disarray, which it was, but hey, at least I slept well. My grandma started the finishing touches on the cooking for Thanksgiving, and all my cousins started to arrive. I was a little shocked, firstly because they were all here before anyone else was, and because a few of them came that don't usually. Joshie and Alan (NOT to be confused with the Allen that I've been talking to) were in attendance, so that was an added festive touch, I guess. It was nice seeing Alan, but I've always felt sort of weird around Joshie. I think it dates back to this conversation we engaged in a few years back, when he kept asking me all these questions about being gay, and how he just didn't understand it, and how I could like dating guys, and I don't know. Granted, he was but a young teenager at the time, but it's always sort of nagged at the back of my mind whenever I'm around him, and just makes things internally awkward for me. But I'm used to my family not fully accepting parts of me, whatever varying parts they may be, so I obviously pushed it aside.

Now since work was wanting people to come in early, talking about coming in at 2 instead of 4, I decided that I was going to go in, mainly because most of us had already eaten by this point and also because I wasn't even spending time with my various family members because ALL of them smoke, and I'm literally the only one that doesn't, and I just can't stand the stench that is cigarette smoke. So I was in my room, seeking refuge from the turmoil, and getting ready for work. By the time I left, I was sort of ready because it just sucks that I couldn't even spend time with anyone because they smoke. It's the crux of my life, I guess. Thanks I guess.

Work was hell. Living, breathing, palpitating hell. This is my fifth Black Friday at my particular place of employment, and my 8th in retail overall, and never in my life have I worked a Black Friday event that was less organized. I honestly can't even believe we raised our sales from the year previous simply because that's how abysmal the planning for event was. It was just simply non-existent. Purely make believe. Pure imagination by Gene Wilder as Willy Wonka. Literally. Such a flustered mess. I was pretty pinched the entire time standing in my queue line, but even before that, I got to hang out with Terry Risa and Pam Pam as we started blowing up the balloons for the event. It started out as me and Morgan Francesca, but she got busy helping set up. The ramen noodle exhibit was fun, but then we got split up to head to our queue lines, and it was a mess. The "map" that told customers and us where things were was not specific to items, like it was in years past, so everyone was pissed, especially the customers from hearing "I don't know" from us when they asked us where stuff was.

Plus we just stood there handing out TVs in our queue line, and that wasn't so bad. Then I rounded up Amber, Pam, and Teresa and we went around the store condensing pallets and making room for the forthcoming conversion back to normal store operations, and then they were all helping me get Toys straightened up, and I started to get overwhelmed. I was literally having a mental breakdown, and I couldn't comprehend anything anyone was saying. Then this customer asking about Pokémon stuff really tartared my sauce, and I was over it. Then after most people had left, Preston got fresh with me a little bit, and after working so long, I was like I'm not dealing with an attitude from anyone so I'm clocking out, so I did. I worked from 1:45pm to minutes before midnight. So I'd say I more than took my share of time helping. I was so fucking exhausted. I tried to stay up a little bit, and I did, but I was just so ready to wash the day away with my dreams. I ended up having a dream about Allen too haha. I had this dream that we were at this party, we came separate, but ended up finding each other. So we're talking and getting to know each other and things of that promising nature, and I said something to him, and before he could answer or say something back, I leaned and kissed him. And we kissed for a little bit and by the time we pulled apart, I either woke up or I don't remember what happened in the dream because that's all I remember haha. But it was a nice dream haha. I shared the dream with him, and he seemed to like that I was having this dream haha. Fun was had by all. Oh, and the title of this blog? Comes from my shitty puns haha. When we were blowing up the balloons, it kept making this God awful screeching sounds, and I mentioned that it sounded like a Velocirpator, and then I was like NO LIKE A HELIUM VELOCIRAPTOR. And thus, Helociraptor was born haha.

And I slept pretty decent after all that. And I literally didn't do shit on Friday haha. The only productive thing that I did on Friday was finish chapter seven in my second book! Obviously Ive already been planning and plotting for chapter eight but I'm just super excited that I finally finished it. And then I typed it up most Friday and Saturday, but I still haven't finished because of time. I'll be so glad when I have more time when the Taylor Swift boosts lock into place. As of now, I'm still in first place, so we'll see. Oh, and I binged the entire first, and only, season of The Mist on Netflix, which was so much better than the movie, oh my God. It was so fucking good. I'm a little pissed at what happened to the only LGBTQ+ character, but other than that, a solid fucking show. I wish there was another season, but alas, cancelled. I stayed up a little too late to finish all ten episodes, but you know ya girl just had to. I still fell sleep to That '70s Show, and right after my last blog, I started Season 6, so that's exciting haha.

Saturday was annoying in the fact that my grandma randomly told me that Joshie was sleeping over, because he had to work in the morning and couldn't be home for whatever raison d'être and that she only had the space for him to sleep in my room on the day bed. I know this shouldn't really bother me, but it did. Because of the reasons listed above, but also because I don't fully trust him to be alone in my room for the amount of time that would transpire between me leaving for work and him heading into work himself. It just didn't set well with me and I ended up lucking out that he preferred to sleep in the living room instead, so that was all good. But then I accompanied my grandma to Golden Corral where we were getting dinner for everybody, and I got so much Bourbon Street chicken, my God. That shit is so fucking good. I ate way too much over the course of the day, but what can you do. Then I ended up marathoning the second season of RuPaul's Drag Race. Literally until bed time when I turned on That '70s Show haha. Aside from the typing up of chapter seven, that's all I did, and it was lovely.

I slept sort of rocky, so waking up for work this morning wasn't the best. Plus since my coffee cup was left at work, and was thought to be thrown away like my metallic blue one, I didn't have coffee to help me. But work ended up being nice in the fact that I was given help for the seven pallets of unworked freight. Zachariah Malachi, from Stationary, was issued to help me, plus Skyler when he came in at 11, plus Walter, but Walter had a ton of bikes to build, so he ended up not. Him, Faith Rose, and I shared all our breaks together, save that of lunch where Zach was on the floor during most of our lunch, but still, so that was fun. Wendy and Amber, through Wendy telling me, found my YouTube page and watched some of my videos and thought I was hilarious, which I am, so that's great haha. Even Rob, who stopped by the store with Amber and the kids, said they and I were awesome. Much praise, swollen ego haha. So yeah, work wasn't too bad. I came home, did my boosts like I have been, I haven't missed a single day haha, and here we are. I'm gonna watch a little Drag Race before bed, and then it's back to bed with That '70s Show. Oh, and I ordered the snake keychain and the only available socks from Taylor's store. Because I'm a slut for those forthcoming tickets. OH! And our bonus is on this next check, with my overtime, so I should have enough for really good seats! COME THROUGH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR. I'm so thankful haha.

Combatting velociraptors with helium,

-- Jesse

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Something's In The Air

| Now Playing: So It Goes... by Taylor Swift |

See you in the dark,
All eyes on me, your illusionist.
All eyes on us,
I make all your grey days clear and,
Cut me into pieces.
Gold cage, hostage to my feelings.
But I got your heart,
Skippin, skip-skippin' when I'm gone.

'Cause we, break down a little,
But when you get me alone, it's so simple.
'Cause baby, I know what you know,
We can feel it.

You did a number on me,
But honestly baby, who's counting?
I did a number on you,
But honestly baby, who's counting?
You did a number on me,
But honestly baby, who's counting?
Who's couting?
1..2...3...

And all our pieces fall,
Right into place.
Getting caught up in the moments,
Lipstick on your face.
So it goes...
I'm yours to keep,
And I'm yours to lose.
You know I'm not a bad girl but I,
Do bad things with you.
So it goes...

Come here, dressed in black now,
So, so, so, so it goes...
Scratches, down your back now,
So, so, so, so it goes..
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Say hello to Wednesday, because it's another blog of me not keeping up with the daily blogging haha. I mean honestly, that's basically what I'm known for at this point, so it really shouldn't be a shocker. Speaking of what I'm "known for", it's so crazy that I've gained so many new followers, and new subscribers and everything recently, it's just literally insane. I'd always imagined having people interested in what I put out and say, but I'd always hoped it would be because of my writing. Hopefully one day, that'll be the case, but until then, I'll take people loving my trash reactions on the internet haha. Anyway, on to the blog.

All of this starts on Sunday, because now that work is full blown about the holidays now, there are no such things has having weekends off. They're things of the past now, so I worked this past Sunday. Obviously, we were working with limited staff because most DM's worked on Saturday, so there weren't that many of us to begin with. Add to the fact that obviously, being over Toys, I have a lot of real estate to deal with, but then mix in the bitter taste of having to sort the Black Friday stuff outside all morning? It was just a mess. But the actual act itself of doing the Black Friday organization wasn't too bad. I had some people that I enjoyed being around at my side, so that was a plus. Also, DBL asked me what I truly thought of them, and a bitch didn't hold back haha. I'm honestly pretty shocked at how well they took it, because I mentioned everything from attitude to shrink meetings. I wasn't bashful, and it was filtered into actual effort, so I'm guessing it went well? I don't like having to break it down like that, but when you ask to be honest, I forgo the sugar.

I feel like it's also important to mention before I continue that my ear hasn't been bothering me since I got back from Nashville? I don't know if it's because of the altitude's we drove or whatever, but I haven't had an episode since we got back. It's truly bizarre. I mean, today and yesterday, I did have some slight irritations with it like, doing that scratchy closing thing, like I needed to pop my ear, but not the total loss and dislodge that I have been feeling. I don't know. I still really want to get it looked at after the holidays, especially before tour comes around. I wanna be able to full experience reputation live without the fear of my ear junking it up for me.

Back to the Sunday sitch. So when we were all outside and everything, it was pretty chill. Also, DBL wasn't telling me their middle name, and after like an hour of torture, I guessed it right, and I was so proud of myself for springing myself out of that hardship haha. After that, I was in the bins full-time, which has been a trend lately because of how much I have and I've been moving random stuff out of other bins just so my stuff is scanned in somewhere in the back room. It's just absolutely insanity.

I've gotten into it with April twice this week, I mean, I just can't help it. I can't really say much for the rest of the work week, excluding yesterday and today (Where we were in grocery and stuff) but yeah. I just can't handle getting unwarranted attitude that I don't deserve, I just don't handle that well. Sure, she apologized this morning, but honestly, how sincere is it when this is like the third or fourth time that she's had to apologized for taking her frustrations out on me? I'm just over it.com.uk.edu.k12. Just so unnecessary.

Okay, so yesterday, something was in the air, I swear to you. People were going off like never before and it was just a sigh to behold. The first two hours of work, I still can't even process, so much happened in those two hours that...okay. Let me start at the beginning. So this who handheld situation is just beyond. It's so far beyond, I can't even fathom it fully to be quite Pocahon. Dustin went off on Sarah about them, went belligerent, and got a talking to, I got into it with April over some breakpacks (that I purposefully stayed after to handle because I didn't want her help, especially after they didn't do my LOL ten buck prenote) and then Warden got so angry at an empty box that she literally went WWE on it and threw it across the back room. I am no kidding. All of this anger and hostility happened before anyone had been there for two hours, it was INSANE. I just think everyone is over it and with tensions high because of Black Friday, everything is just a mess. LunchCrew went to Pizza Den yesterday, which was bomb as always. It was just a crazy day, especially since I stayed after.

So then today, Lord Jesus above, Formerly of the Cross. So I came in pretty well rested, considering I got off late. More pallets of Toys, but what else is new? April gave me her "apology", and we were firstly pulled to grocery to do topstock. Go figure, Toys is really busy right now too, but none for Toys Coco. Anyway, Terry Risa and Faith Rose and I are down and aisle together, making good time, and fate steps in and Destiny drops a can of pasta sauce that shatters, and sprays a customer like right as he turned around to face her. It was literally just a wrong place, wrong time situation, but Destiny was pretty up in arms about it and worried that he was angry, but he took it pretty well. So we had that to deal with, and by that, I mean the clean up haha. Then we got called to AA in Frozen to "Go over" Black Friday, which was literally nothing, and then we finished up in Grocery and we finally got a break.

We all took separate lunches because today was just really insane. By the time I came back from lunch, we were called back over to grocery in order to feature to home, and it was just enough. So while I'm in the process of getting the baking aisle done, I get pulled with Matt to go outside to Davis and DBL to help with Black Friday stuff, just like we had done on Sunday. I was pretty pissed, because keep in mind, that before lunch, I was helping Seanathan Michael Preston out by covering Electronics because of a call out, and it was just madness. So yeah, I was a little upset. Then in the middle of that, I hear a call about mixing paint and since I'm apparently the only other DM that knows how to do it, I left to do that. Luckily Omari got it, but still. Then I decided I had well earned a break from getting pulled around so much, I found Teresa and we went. But then we get called, all DMs with register numbers, to go up front, so we only got about five minutes. And then we get up there, and the lines are fine. Dakota said we could leave, and Teresa and I went to the break room to go get a proper break. By this time, I go back outside to help with Black Friday, but it was just a waste of time and I finally went to leave. But then ended up helping customers at Site To Store that kept me over another thirty minutes, go figure.

They were talking about people coming in earlier than 4pm tomorrow, and I might do it, but who knows. I'm just so over the holidays, it's hard to actually enjoy them anymore. It's like they've been burned out of me like a harsh fever. I'm just really ready for some retail remedy. And yes, more Taylor in the NP. So It Goes... is probably my next fave, fuck it's so good.

Coughing from the retail smog in the air,

-- Jesse

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Deactivation

| Now Playing: Don't Blame Me by Taylor Swift |

My name,
Is whatever you decide and.
I'm just gonna call you mine,
I'm insane but I'm your baby.
Echoes,
Of your name in my mind.
Halo hiding my obsession.
I once was poison ivy but,
Now I'm your daisy.

And baby, for you,
I would fall from grace,
Just to touch your face.
If you walk away,
I'd beg you on my knees to stay.

Don't blame me, love made me crazy
If it doesn't you ain't doing it right.
Lord save me, my drug is my baby
I'll be using for the rest of my life.
Don't blame me, love made me crazy
If it doesn't you ain't doing it right.
Oh Lord save me, my drug is my baby
I'll be using for the rest of my life.

I get so high,
Oh, every time your, every time you're loving me,
You're loving me.
Trip of my life,
Oh, every time you're, every time you're touching me,
You're touching me.
Every time you're, every time you're loving me.
Oh Lord save me, my drug is my baby
I'll be using for the rest of my life,
Using for the rest of my life.
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SHOCKER. There's a new Taylor Swift song in the NP haha. Anyone reading this should just assume that that's going to be the case until all 15 songs from reputation are featured haha. I legit haven't listened to anything else but reputation, so it's valid. And let's give three cheers for the return of normal blog days! It's currently Saturday night, and I haven't written, or I guess posted, a Saturday blog in two weeks, so welcome back, Saturday. You've been reactivated.

Okay, so let's get this show on the road. So, firstly, as we know, my rep video didn't post on my blog, because it wasn't to be so difficult. But assuming my phone will cooperate, I'll post them individually here, or at least the ones that I've posted on my YouTube channel. I just posted the one for Getaway Car about an hour ago, so that's how far I've gotten haha. Both End Game and Don't Blame Me got blocked, but not removed, so no one can view them, and it pisses me off. But so far, I Did Something Bad, Delicate, and So It Goes... are still up. So hopefully that doesn't change. But like I said, if Blogger will allow it, I'll attach them here for anyone (me) who wants to see it. And it won't, so there's that.

So Thursday, was a day haha. I came in to 11 pallets of freight, even after fitting three whole pallets in my bins the day before. It's just getting so out of hand. And even though I suggested it a month ago, I finally got the go ahead to deactivate the department. Thank God. Because I'm getting so much freight it's absolutely insane. So since I got the go ahead on that, I started doing that. Mary Ann was helping me, but both of us were getting pulled in so many directions, it was taking forever just to do the two aisles we finished. Then it was lunch time and LunchCrew got together and went to Mexican, which of course was amazing. Shout out to Destiny Faith Rose for paying for my broke ass. And then I came back, and was told their was a safety meeting, so I printed out the mods like suggested, so I could scan them during the meeting. But it got cancelled, so I stayed in personnel and kept scanning and deactivating things. And I was doing it until 6:30. SIX THIRTY. And then I had some things to do in the department, so I was there until 7. My overtime gonna be right.

And then I came home and was gearing up for the night's shows. GIRL, GREYS!?? The last ten seconds really fucked me up. AND HTGAWM I CAN'T. It's just so good. And, something I forgot to mention in my last blog, I started talking to a guy?? Who am I? Haha, but for real, I started talking to him on Grindr like as I was leaving for Nashville, either the day I left, I think, or close therein, but we've been talking like every day sense then. I think after I got back from Nashville I gave him my number and we've texted every single day since then, plus Snapchat. I don't know. I don't wanna get my hopes up because of what happened the last time I was in a relationship, but I really like him. He's just a really cool, sweet guy, that doesn't live in a different state, and I don't know. He's just a really great guy. We're trying to coordinate a date, since he asked me out on one, but a bitch is broke, so we're trying to work around that haha. Probably after Black Friday and all the work hysteria that's about to happen during the next week. So yeah, haha. There's that. Three cheers to Allen for just being a sweetheart.

So moving on, after I wrapped up with Seanathan Michael Preston about why I was staying late and everything else going on at work, I headed home. My grandma was spending the night with her friend Ann up in Christiansburg, so there was that. Nikki got home around the same time that I did and she brought home food from Montano's, which is always bomb as fuck, I still can taste that bomb ass potato soup, it's so good.

Friday was spent dragging because I didn't sleep well because of staying up to watch the shows, and because I had no coffee to full load my preparation for the day. But it was a good day. I was working on price changes and trying to get any of the 15 pallets of overstock in my bins. I got rid of one pallet, but yeah. That's a lot of overstock. LunchCrew went to Zaxby's, where we had a lot of laughs and it was a good time. Shout out to Terry Risa for also paying for my broke ass haha. I love my babes. I came home and posted the So It Goes... reaction video, then just continued to watch That '70s Show while I got ready to sleep. I'm still on Season 5. It's just as slow of a burn as Season 4 was haha.

Woke up this morning, and got to sleep in and get some really, really, good sleep for once, so that was much appreciated. Then I made a pot of coffee and got to working on finishing chapter seven of Book Two, and I finally got it finished! I'm so glad because it's been so long since I've been able to sit down and write and have that time, and today just proved to me that I can still write the same amazing way that I have been, even if it's been a little while since I've been able to churn out some high quality writing. So that's super awesome. Then I listened to reputation pretty much all day, made friends with Jess that's super popular on Tumblr with the Swiftie fandom, bonded, and she shared that she loves my videos! So crazy haha. I Did Something Bad has 17K views!? WHAT THE FUCK. And Perez Hilton, who I didn't know had an official Tumblr, liked my Getaway Car video haha. I don't like him, AT ALL, but that was just freaking hilarious.

So that's how I've spent my day haha. I tried typing up chapter seven, but I was tapped out, I guess. But I did make this video of me singing along to Dancing With Our Hands Tied, so here's that to enjoy.


I'm literally a mess. But what have we come to expect? The fact that I will forever and always be Taylor Swift trash haha.

Deactivating on being inactive,

-- Jesse

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

There Will Just Be Reputation

| Now Playing: I Did Something Bad by Taylor Swift |

I never trust a narcissist,
But they love me.
So I play 'em like a violin,
And I make it look oh so easy.
'Cause for every lie I tell them,
They tell me three.
This is how the world works,
Now all he thinks about is me.

I can feel the flames on my skin,
Crimson red paint on my lips.
If a man talks shit then I owe him nothing.
I don't regret it one bit 'cause he had it coming.

They say I did something bad,
Then why's it feel so good?
They say I did something bad,
But why's it feels so...good?
Most fun I ever had,
And I'd do it over and over and over again if I could.
It just felt so...good...good.

They're burning all the witches even if you aren't one.
They got their pitchforks and proof,
They're receipts and reasons.
They're burning all the witches even if you aren't one.
So light me up, light me up, light me up, go ahead and light me up.

So good,
Why's it feel so good?
Why's it feel, why's it feel so good?
Bad.
It just felt so...good...good.
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It's currently ten til 9pm on Thursday night and I'm a fucking mess. Taylor is about to do a performance during tonight's episode of Scandal, the 300th episode of Grey's Anatomy is about to finishing airing, and reputation is just mere hours away from being released. I can't believe the moment is finally upon us. I think back to before this album was announced, and how depressed and just overall unhappy I was, and Taylor giving me these past three months to be excited about something and to anticipate something and give my life the rays of sunshine that it has so dearly missed is something that I'll never be able to repay her for. I know that may seem really stupid to some people, but she really has saved my life with this album. And I'm going to either cry, scream, faint or possibly all three when the album drops and I can listen to it for the first time. And that paired with this road trip happening with Benzo this weekend, I just couldn't be happier.

Anyways, work. Surprisingly, today was really good. I didn't have any freight, coffee kept me sane, and I spent the morning moving pallets around and things of that nature. I JUST CRIED SO HARD DURING THAT SCENE WITH MEREDITH AND ELLIS DURING GREYS I CAN'T DEAL. Sorry, I had a moment. Anyway, so many people were off today, and Market was back for Round Two, but at least I had Destiny Faith Rose, even though she was overwhelmed by notes from the day before. After lunch, which I spent watching Season 2 of Drag Race, I spent the rest of the day getting everything situated for the weekend.

I bought a dash mount for the road trip this weekend, so Benzo and I can belt out reputation while I drive and everything haha, and it's fantastic. iOttie makes some fanfreakingtastic products. I thought my vent mount by them was awesome, but the Easy Touch 3 is incredible. I love it. I tested that out, watched some Judge Judy over dinner, started filming my vlog and have footage of just how awkward I am, and went to town on my boosts while playing Super Mario Odyssey. I currently still have my first place title, but like I said before, I'm not banking on it. Now, I'm just waiting for Taylor's performance of New Year's Day during Scandal. Dude, I'm going to fucking pass out when this album comes out.

THE PERFORMANCE ON NEW YEARS DAY OH MY GOD. THE SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL IM PACKED BECAUSE I GOTTA GOOOOO. It's so soft of fragile, please protect this innocent babe at all costs. I filmed myself watching it, but might just use it as footage during my album reaction haha. HTGAWM GOT ME FUCKED UP TOO BITCH. Ugh, I'm just running on so many emotions tonight. How did we go from literally no word from Taylor AT ALL to the album coming out in less than an hour? Bitch, I'm fucking deceased. By the time I write the next paragraph of this blog, I will have listened to reputation in full. I'M NOT CRYING YOU ARE.

Flash forward to Wednesday...haha. Just so much has happened that I didn't have the energy or the time to properly post a blog on Saturday, so this one is just going to include basically and entire week's worth of events.

So obviously, I stayed up for the midnight release of reputation, and bitch. As you can imagine, I was fucked up. Hell, I'm still fucked up, to be quite Pocahonest. I stayed up until 6 AM, just to post my reaction of the album to YouTube, only for it to be taken down after about 2K views. I was really upset, still am, because I stayed up so late and worked so hard on it and it's honestly such a beautifully genuine reaction that I want people to see haha. I even uploaded it again once Benzo and I were in Nashville, but it got taken down even quicker, like after 300 views. But whatever. I have since been posting the songs individually, and that was working until today, my endgame video got taken down, but not from copyright. It's just "blocked" but it's still getting views? I don't know, I haven't researched it yet. But assuming it'll let me post my full video on my blog, I'll put it below.


So let's just talk about the album. Holy fuck. Literally, holy fuck. People at the Secret Sessions were saying this album is her best album yet, and bitch I was skeptic. But BITCH. They were wrong about Gorgeous being able to cut glass but they were fucking right about the album as a whole. It's fucking incredible. Hands down her best album. Production wise, lyrically, everything. Everyfuckingthing. This album is the album that I've literally have always wanted from her, and for her to deliver, bitch I'm into it. I Did Something Bad is probably my favorite, bitch goes OFF. That along with Don't Blame Me and So It Goes.. are probably my top 3, without a doubt. But it's so hard because the entire album is literally everything. Fuck.

Okay, so I didn't vlog. Sorry not sorry trademark Demi. I slept until like noon Friday because I stayed up so late editing my reaction to reputation. And then literally all I did was enjoy the Target magazines that came as I woke up and listened to reputation. Benzo got here later in the night. We slept, woke up around 8 and got ready to hit the road. Stopped at McDonald's for breakfast and drove down to Nashville. My check engine light came on, but everything was fine? I honestly think it was from bumps in the road but who knows. And we learned that we were in the central time zone?? Even though we've been to Nashville before?? And we didn't?? I can't. But we ordered pizza, went to one Jack In The Box where they literally lost their shit, went to another Jack In The Box where we could actually get some food, and then went to bed haha.

Sunday started with an anxiety attack for Benzo, and then I had one nearing the signing to meet Maggie Stiefvater. And it was just too much. We went into the bookstore but it was PACKED, Maggie was apparently doing a reading, and I was expecting less of a crowd and more of a signing, and with my anxiety already at compacity, I just couldn't do it. So we left. And honestly, it's good too because we didn't get back until 10:30PM and I was so worn out from driving 14 hours in two days. Literally came home and went straight to sleep with That '70s Show.

Monday we lounged around, I posted my reaction to just End Game, and Benzo and I went to the Moose Lodge and experienced BINGO 3: Beatrice Barbara, who is who we're calling Gloria Gladys' best friend at bingo haha. We didn't win anything, but it was still really fun. Then we came home and went to bed because we're adults haha.

Yesterday I went back to work for the first time since my little vacation and reputation's release and it was enough starring Jennifer Lopez. 9 pallets of freight. Literally enough. And today was the exact same. I'm just done with it. I can't believe I missed a day of blogging, but honestly it was so needed. Catch me bopping to reputation from now until the end of time.

Not caring about my reputation,

-- Jesse

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

There Will Be No Further Explanation

| Now Playing: Yet Another Dig by Bob The Drag Queen |

You're sipping on the haterade, yet another swig.
Frying up some bacon bitch, yet another pig.
I'm a Redwood and you're yet another twig.
All Stars 2 was yet another rig.

I see you on Twitter bitch, yet another block.
Catch me on the runway, sissy yet another walk.
You're bothered bitch? These are just the facts.
Time to chop a bitch down, "Tina!...bring me the axe!"

Yet another dig, yet another dig at me
Eleganza, I see the way you trip off me
Pipe down bitch, I run the library
Shh, you're too shallow to dig on me

My name's Alaska and I'm here to make it clear,
I know you love me baby but I fucking hate you dear.
Turn this shit up 'til your fucking ears bleed,
And if you ask me to stop? "I'd like to keep it on please."
Four challenge wins, four challenge wins,
Then the finale comes, and the crowned queen is...
It's not right but it's not okay,
Who's after Peppermint? Bitch, not Shea Coulee!
Mmmmmm, sue me.

Yet another dig, yet another dig.
Yet another dig, yet another dig.
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Right after my last blog, I literally laid in bed and watched That '70s Show because I couldn't be bothered. Plus I was still feeling the subtle pangs of a headache and just all over bad. It literally was like I had a hangover without any of the fun of being buzzed or anything like that. I wish there was something even mildly interesting about the rest of my Sunday, but literally that's all I did. And then I went to bed. I did finally, finally, start Season 5 of That '70s Show. I literally started crying during the last episode of Season 4 because Eric and Donna were about to get back together but Eric was like I don't wanna be your second choice and the shaky vulnerability in Laura Prepon's voice when she goes "you're not!", it just fucked me up. Of course, they get back together in the start of Season 5 when Eric shows up in California, but ya know. Is it sad that the most interesting thing about the rest of my evening was literally me watching That '70s Show? Oh well. I'm living my best life.

Work wasn't too bad on Monday. All my freight was ran this morning when I came in, but I still had all those price changes from last week because no one did them while I was off on Sunday. I mean, I didn't really expect for that to be the case, but still. Anyway, work was work. Except for the little episodes I was having. First it was like my stomach was hurting because I ate too much, but I in fact had not eaten too much, so I don't know what that was about. I kept having to burp in order to clear the pain from my stomach, as one tends to do. Then I had this weird series of heart palpitations a few hours later and it like caused me to be really out of breath? I don't know, it was just weird. But then after I was clocked out, I found out Warden wanted me, but since I was clocked out, I was free to go. So naturally I think I'm in trouble. I hate to think that way, especially when I haven't done anything wrong and I work as hard as I do, but ya know. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what Tamar Braxt brings.

When I got home, I immediately started to do my boosts, but even with completing them for the day, I've lost my first place standing. I'm bummed, but I'm still hoping that I can get my hands on some really good seats and everything. Time will tell on that front as well. Ian was over at the house and the four of us had some pretty interesting conversations over dinner. And since then, I FaceTimed with Benzo and now I'm honestly ready to go to bed. This time change from the weekend has me feeling some type of way. I just really hope that I'm not in any sort of trouble or anything because as stressful and everything as my job is, I really do appreciate it and enjoy helping people finding what they need and learning as much as I can. I just hope it's not something to stress over. Literally the last time I went down to Nashville, as soon as I got back, everything crumbled beneath me, and I really don't want that to happen again. Maybe I just need a good night's sleep.

And although I didn't really sleep as soundly as I would have liked, I did feel pretty decent when I woke up. I was just a little worried about work given how yesterday ended, but it was all for not. Today was a pretty good day. I spent the entire morning at work moving features and things around. LunchCrew plus Amber hit up DQ for lunch, where we laughed and laughed and just really had a good time and just all around joy was had. Then I spent the rest of the evening finally getting my late price changes finished and literally did my picks last, but it all got done, so obviously routine isn't the best way to do things? haha.

Also, yesterday there was an alleged tracklist for reputation floating around, and there were tons of reports saying that this one was actually real. Well, since stores are getting the physical copies of the album now, today that tracklist was pretty much confirmed and I'm beside myself with excitement. Obviously I have no self control when it comes to looking up the tracklist because we're literally THREE days out and Taylor hasn't released the tracklist, but obviously, I'm not going around spreading it online or anything. I personally just wanted song titles to look forward to, but I'm not about posting that online or ruining what moves Taylor wants to do. I'm just a nosy bitch.

Once I got off work, and was thankful that nothing of the sort that I was worried about yesterday didn't happen, I came home and did my boosts. Now that I'm finally finished with that, I think I'm gonna play a little Super Mario Odyssey because I'm obsessed before I head to bed. Much excite, I know haha. I'm hoping that with the tracklist leak, Taylor officially drops the tracklist Tamar Braxt, but we shall see. She also dropped Secret Session video sneak peeks today and shared the Target commercial for the rep magazines. I'm literally gonna be such a mess Friday.

Another night of weird sleep. Not bad sleep, just a lot of waking up, a lot of rolling over and that king of thing. Remember how I said Taylor would probably address the tracklist today? Well, before I went to bed last night, she dropped it officially at around ten o'clock haha. I knew it wasn't going to be long. And sure, it would have been great to have experienced the drop when it happened, but I mean with stores getting the album in the stores, a tracklist leak was inevitable. So here's the official tracklist via Queen of Snakes herself.


BITCH. I'm so fucking hyped. I can't believe that at this time tomorrow night, I'll be gearing up for the album's official release. So I honestly can't remember which song titles I was most interested in for 1989 but I remember being super excited for both Treacherous and Sad Beautiful Tragic before we had heard them. And for reputation, the three that I'm most excited for are I Did Something Bad, Don't Blame Me, and This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things. FUCK. Those SONG TITLES DOH. I'm literally shooketh to the core.

So today's work day turned out to be a lot better than it began. I was instantly annoyed over the handheld situation, since I left mine for Seanathan Michael Preston when I was leaving yesterday, and it was just enough. Then I was told something about binning pallets that apparently is correct but I've never heard of it in my 5 years of experience? So great communication there, I was just over it. But the rest of the day turned out well, and that's with a surprise visit from Market there today. I was too busy moving pallets around and binning overstock and things this morning to do any sort of a routine.

Pam, Wendy, Amber and I grabbed lunch at Hardee's today, and it was just much needed. Both my boos Destiny Faith Rose and Terry Risa were both off today, so they missed out on all the shenanigans of the day. Then the rest of my day was going to be spent doing routine and top stock but that ended up falling to the wayside so that I could finally address that cart of demo stuff from the event Saturday that hasn't been touched since I left it there, so there's that. But at least that's finished now. And by then, it was already time for me to go. Oh, and I discovered that Twitter FINALLY updated to 280 characters now, because they knew that I'm gonna need to display my trash ass when reputation drops at midnight Thursday.

Then I came home, had some bomb ass Schwann's potato soup with my grandparents, watching good ol' Judge Judy because we stan her in this house, and I went straight in on my boosts. And I've regained my first place ranking! I don't know how and I don't expect to keep it long, but that put a smile on my face today. Then I went to cleaning my room because I realized that if I vlog a little bit tomorrow (for my forthcoming road trip vlog) that I can't possibly blog with a messy room, I just can't. So I did that while bopping my ass to Superfruit's amazing Future Friends album, and now I'm gonna settle down with tonight's new episode of Riverdale before bed. Life is good when you don't have to constantly explain yourself, like I tend to have to do at work. Plus, tomorrow is my last day of work before my four day weekend starts and a bitch is ready for it by Taylor Swift.

Finished with explanations,

-- Jesse

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Knuckle Cuts

| Now Playing: Call It What You Want by Taylor Swift |

All my flowers grew back as thorns,
Windows boarded up after the storm,
He built a fire just to keep me warm.

All the drama queens taking swings,
All the jokers dressing up as kings,
They fade to nothing when I look at him.

And I know I make the same mistakes, every time,
Bridges burn, I never learn, I guess I did one thing right.
I did one thing right.
I'm laughing with my lover,
Making forts under covers,
Trust him like a brother, yeah you know I did one thing right.
Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night.

My baby's fit like a daydream,
Walking with his head down,
I'm the one he's walking to.
So call it what you want yeah,
Call it what you want to.

My baby's fly like a jetstream,
High above the whole scene,
Loves me like I'm brand new.
So call what you want yeah,
Call it what you want to.
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GIRL PEEP THAT SONG IN THE NP. I'm so damn glad that the rumors about there being one more song released from reputation before the album comes out next week (HOW IS IT NEXT WEEK) So I'm actually writing this before the song is actually released. I'm going to really attempt to do this blog daily. I just finished watching Will & Grace and now I'm making a pot of coffee because yes it's that serious that I stay up tonight and properly react to this song haha. I just feel like I could fall asleep at any moment, and that just can't happen when I've got a video to film and edit later on. But enough about currently, and let's get on with the actual blog.

Firstly, today was just a mirage of stained glass images because it was just one shade of crazy after another. I didn't really sleep too well last night, which is weird because I have been keeping up on my melatonin intake when I'm laying down for bed, but it just wasn't really happening last night. I even watched a few episodes of That '70s Show before I finally fell asleep. I kept waking up during the night, and when I woke up around 5, I was convinced that it said 6 and my alarm was about to go off, but obviously I was crazy and enjoyed my last real hour of sleep once I realized what time it really was. So I was dragging by the time I walked in the door at work this morning.

And since this week has been a real mirage of known events, I was just really accepting whatever work had to offer. I had a couple carts of freight and an entire pallet of overstock to bin, but yeah. And we had the morning meeting this morning outside on the patio in Lawn & Garden because there were pallets of seasonal candles and HBA that we were told to deal with after break, so that took about a little over an hour. Luckily, I was with Pam and Amber, so it really wasn't that bad. It just really put me behind in my department, like I have been all week, which isn't' good considering that I have this event on Saturday so.

Lunch was far more interesting haha. There was more additions to LunchCrew, which is always fun. After Pam and I rode with Destiny to McDonald's on Tuesday (Which was an event in of itself), we decided to go to Mexican since that's what we really wanted on Tuesday, but my check hadn't gone in yet. Wendy and Amber joined us for lunch, and we piled into Destiny's car, which was just hilarious because of how many of us there were haha. And then after we ate, which was of course amazing and their sweet tea game literally can't be beat, I told Destiny to play Like My Daddy from the Empire soundtrack so I could get some of the bottled emotions I've been having out lately, and it was a fucking performance haha. I mean I was going all in, and everyone was laughing and enjoying my Grammy winning performance haha. It was fun to get everybody in a good mood with how the week, and the weeks prior, have been going, so that was fun.

Then I was basically going through the department for my top items for the event the rest of the day. Seanathan Michael Preston was there today, so he was helping me try and find some order. Plus he fixed my schedule for the Nashville trip next weekend, so that was much obliged and much needed. And then I was helping customers all over the place, including a guy with a BB air gun, which was just really time consuming, but altogether worth it. Warden wanted to tour my area, so we did that and I was completely transparent about how often I'm able to do routine and processes, otherwise it's not going to get fixed. Then we went over more of what's going to happen for the event, like making cupcakes for the kids (Literally 72 of each color, like a lot of cupcakes)

I came home, after staying a whole hour later at work, watched some greatness in the form of Judge Judy, ate dinner, Preston called me for the top 25 item tags, and then that's it. Watched Grey's and W&G and now I'm really tired, about to watch HTGAWM. I just spent the rest of the evening after dinner catching up on YouTube, aka Shane and Joseph Birdsong haha. This episode of Murder is supposed to fuck us up, so hopefully that'll give me more hype so I'm not so tired. Plus, this coffee is going to play its part.

I ended up making another pot of coffee because a bitch was literally about to pass out and everything, it was just needed. And luckily, I didn't have any trouble getting the song to download or anything like I did with Gorgeous, so everything went smoothly. And FUCK. The lyrics to Call It What You Want are fucking fire. After Gorgeous, I didn't know what to expect out of this song, but I'm so glad that Taylor has blown me clear out of the water. Here's my reaction to CIWYW for those who are interested.


And my video for CIWYW is garnering a lot of views! It got 500 within the first hour, I was shocked. And now, only two days later (It's currently Sunday afternoon), it's at 5.8K views. LITERALLY so insane. I'm so thankful to anyone who watches my trash videos, so to see those type of numbers associated with me are just outrageous but I'm so grateful.

So trying to daily blog? Yeah, that hasn't worked. As seen above, it's currently Sunday afternoon because the past few days has been so crazy that I literally couldn't even post this blog on time last night. So I'll try my best to recall them.

Work has just been crazy. I spent all day Friday in a haze, dealing with customers and just having breakdown after breakdown. And then Saturday was the toys event and it was just a lot of running around trying to prepare. The event wasn't that bad, it was just chaos and I was over it. Plus I literally sliced my knuckle open trying to get the toys set up and everything, so there's that. Not much more than that has happened. I woke up this morning, meaning Sunday morning, just feeling bad. Like I had a hangover, but I don't drink so. It's just really weird. Like I just feel weird? I've felt better since though.

I checked my boosts and I lost my first place spot! But I did my boosts and I think as long as I do them every day, I'll be alright. Then I caught up on The Fosters because Season 5A is on Netflix and now I'm gonna chill. So yeah. Hopefully the rest of this week goes well to give me a smooth transition into the road trip!

Cutting my own knuckles,

-- Jesse

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Holloween

| Now Playing: Boy by Willow Smith |

Hey mom,
I met a boy,
He plays guitar.
He likes Quentin Tarantino,
And really sad songs.

Anxiety attacks when he wakes in the morning,
And I can't help the thought, he think I'm boring.
'Cause I come from a cluster of super bright stars,
And probably to him it feels scary to reach that far.
But down on Earth there's so much pain,
But way up here we explore galaxies.

Hey God,
Are you there?
I need to talk.
I'm feeling love is here and then it's not.
We hysterically cry when we wake up in the morning,
Could you please tell us why life feels like torment?
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Remember how I said I was going to daily blog? Yeah, I don't know her. It's just been sort of a really weird start to the week, and I just haven't felt up to it. Plus, I've been like getting my sleep back? I don't know, it's just felt good getting back to a semi-normal sleep pattern and I haven't wanted to mess that up by staying up even later to blog or take the time out of my busy (lol) schedule of nothing to make it happen. But I'll do my best to recall everything, but we all know how my memory has been as of late.

So Sunday was a weird day. I don't know, I just feel super weird thinking back on it and especially a certain conversation that transpired during Sunday, which I'll most likely gloss over because I really don't want to think about it because it made me feel super weird over the entire course of the day as well as into work the following morning, so I'm just going to leave it at things are going on with my brother and I don't really, still, even know what to think or say about it. Moving on.

I actually got some writing done, and finally got past the scene I've been on for a while. It's so weird because I feel like so much has gone on lately and I just haven't even really had the time to write a whole lot. I've just been super consumed with everything that's going on with work and with family and with this new walking thing that I've been doing lately. But at least I got to write at all. I don't even remember know what I was writing to, but obviously I made it happen. Speaking of the walking thing, as I think I mentioned in my last blog, I gave myself a little break and didn't walk any on Saturday, mainly do to how late I slept in and everything. But I actually got to on Sunday, by making it happen when Mom called me back and we talked for well over an hour about the crazy, mood-altering things that have been happening over there, again, I just don't want to dwell on it. After my walk, I decided to just relax, and I honestly couldn't tell you what I did after that because I can't for the life of me remember. I think that's the day that there was a new Taylor rumor by the Pop twitter handle I follow, saying that it's "confirmed" that we're getting another single on Friday night. Hopefully that holds true, because I could use something to look forward to. But like I said, I really can't remember that far back. God bless my memory.

Monday's pretty much just as foggy. Obviously it was another week back at work, but other than that, I can't really remember. I remember being behind at work, no, that day I was good because I didn't have freight and I ran routine, I think. If I'm remembering correctly but honestly, the work weeks just bleed together like Crayola drawings in the rain. But then yesterday happened.

I was even feeling so good. I've been taking melatonin on a more regular basis when I lay down for bed, and it must have worked because I slept through the night, without interruption, and was awakened by my alarm, for probably the first time in the better part of a year. So I was feeling really good by the time I rolled up to work. But it all fell apart really quickly. Before I could go gather my things or get my cart or any of those other morning things, we were told to wait, that there was direction from Warden which basically entailed us filling the seasonal aisle with Christmas stuff. You know, an activity that only took us 3.5 hours? Especially since there was only five of us working it / working in general. Richard also gave me such an attitude when I asked if anyone else was coming to help because I had no idea. Also, Terry quit. God bless Housewares' turnover.

I just feel really empty anymore, just over it. It's just been done. But then today, Taylor helped with the release of a behind the scene video on the creation of Gorgeous! That was a bright beacon today because when is Taylor not? It was needed to because I was given the Pharmacy wall to put my overflow of features but that meant that I was running features all day today. Literally ran my feet off. But she also, literally within the last five minutes, dropped exclusive new merch pictures that's coming to the store soon! MY BANK ACCOUNT GONE. BOUGHT. WALLET SHREDDED. Here's the video and pictures of the merch that have literally saved my day.


I also got caught up on Riverdale and am watching the episode live as we speak. Then I'm probably going to hop in the shower and then hop into bed. I'm just so ready to head out of town to Nashville. I just need to have a good time and get going. It's also weird that this is the first blog of November, and the first time my blog posts have fallen where a month only has 8 instead of 9 posts? October got the short end of the stick, I guess. Thanks I guess. ALSO RIVERDALE IS CRAZY AND I LOVE IT. Can we talk about how hot KJ Apa is?


In better news, I've been listening to a writing podcast from the creator of Smashwords, so that's been nice. I just need a boost in light to happen.

Feeling hollow,

-- Jesse