Hope You're Invited, Girl

| Now Playing: Say Amen (Saturday Night) by Panic At The Disco |

Been traveling in packs that I can't carry anymore,
Been waiting for somebody else to carry me.
There's nothing else there for me at my door,
All the people I know aren't who they used to be.
And if I try to change my life one more day,
There would be nobody else to save
And I can't change into a person I don't wanna be so,
Oh, it's Saturday night!

I pray for the wicked on the weekend,
Mama, can I get another amen?
Oh, oh, it's Saturday night!
Swear to God, I aint' ever gonna repent,
Mama, can I get another amen?
Oh, oh, it's Saturday night, yeah!

If I had one more day to wish,
If I had one more day,
To be better than I could have ever been.
If I had one more day to wish,
If I had one more day,
I could be better but baby.
Oh, it's Saturday night!
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Let me start off by saying how thankful I was to have Wednesday to just recover and relax. While it sucked to get another point for missing work, it was really something that I needed. Heading back to work was...a lot. Luckily there wasn't a truck Thursday night so that meant that coming in Friday was going to be awesome. And it was. I got to get in my bins, and actually sift through them and get them situated, it was also very needed. Everyone is freaking out because our 30 Day Inventory Walk is Tuesday, and everyone's trying to get ready for it, but honestly, sis, good luck. I'm just trying to make sure my bins look as good as they possibly can.

In other news, because of the weather that was / did happen Saturday, Allen decided to move the party up to Friday night so that we wouldn't have to worry about the weather or anything getting in the way of our Scooby Doo fun. Which I think worked out for the better in the long run, it gave both Allen and I time to readjust to the upcoming work week, which is needed for both of us really.

So after work Friday, I came home and started getting ready for the party. I decided to buy a regular orange shirt at work just because I was worried about being too hot in the sweater I had bought. Which ended up being a wonderful decision especially when factoring in drinking and what not. So I got there, and we just hung out, listening to music and drinking and talking. West got home and we helped him get ready, then the people started to arriver. A little late, but hey, better than never. Lisette and Kelly got there, and we started to watch the first movie and played Kings while doing it. We never finished the game, but it was a lot of fun. Amanda and CJ joined right after the movie was about to end. Then there was some Amanda and CJ drama, God love em, but West, CJ and I were having a good time out on the balcony reliving the first time I had ever drank haha. Also, I absolutely loved the moment where Allen and I were out there and after a kiss, he said, "See, I almost said it." He was referring to the conversation we had had the last time I was down there, involving the L word, so that was great. Both of us are on the same page as far as that is concerned, and I'm super thankful for that.

We got really drunk. Or rather, I got really drunk? After everyone left (shout out to Kelly for the awesome phrase in the title that I kept repeating when she was talking about one of their co-workers about the party haha), Allen and West and I were still going strong, listening to music, having a good time. Then bed time came, and Allen and I were so damn tired. I brought my behemoth table fan with me, and it was a saving grace. I slept the best I've ever slept up there. West had said something the night before about waffles for breakfast, but they were too hungover for that haha. I just don't get hangovers? I'm blessed I guess haha.

We joined West as we watched the Netflix show Love, which is literally the most cringe worthy and awkward show I've ever seen in my life, and then Allen and I decided on Chinese as it started to snow. Chinese Kitchen was incredible, even if it did take an hour to get there haha. West went to work and then Allen and I watched the second Scooby Doo movie, followed by my leaving because I was worried that with how much snow there was, I would get snowed in.

I came home, worked out on the treadmill, rematched Drag Race and I'm absolutely in love with Dusty Ray Bottoms (Neva loved ya!) and also Miz Cracker. Literally my Top 2 are Dusty and Cracker. Anyway, then I played Sims, downloaded a Trixie Mattel Sims for the gallery, made her a daughter after my hypothetical drag name of Vanta Black, and downloaded this awesome home called Trixie's Glamour Ranch from the gallery haha. Then I headed to bed with the return of the Modern Family rematch. I'm unsure if I'll continue, but I don't know what to do without it, to be honest.

Today, I've done laundry, did a little bit of writing, and about to play more Sims, and easy day haha. I'm so fucking excited for Panic's new album, Pray For The Wicked. Both the song in the NP and the other song he released, (Fuck A) Silver Lining, are so fucking good, I'm hyped. Let's hope this work week doesn't go as poorly as I expect it to. I also bought the Sever audiobook! I'm in the process of listening to it, and ugh, I just love it so much.

Forever invited,

-- Justin

RTA: Run That Ass

| Now Playing: I Think I'm In Love With You by Jessica Simpson |

Every time you're near baby,
I get kinda crazy in my head for you,
I don't know what to do.
And oh baby,
I get kinda shaky when they mention you,
I just lose my cool.
My friends tell me,
Something has come over me.
And I think I know what it is,
I think I'm in love.

Boy I think that I'm in love with you,
I've been doing silly things when it comes to you.
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you,
I've been tellin' all my friends what I feel for you.

I don't know what's gotten into me,
But God, I think I know what it is,
I think I'm in love
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Look at me go, actually posting a blog on Wednesday haha. Maybe it's because I actually got to de-stress from the usual work craziness. It snowed super hard last night, and, because I've been fighting sleep since the weekend, I decided to stay home and tend to my mental health and actually get some sleep. I don't know why I've had so much trouble sleeping since leaving my boyfriend's place, but it's been unreal how tired I've been at work. So today was a 'lax chill day full of minimal writing in Book Two and playing the Sims. Gotta love it.

I Think I'm In Love With You has been coming on so often on shuffle lately, and being stuck in my head, there's no way I couldn't put it in the NP. Jessica Simpson honestly was such an icon, we miss those Newlyweds days haha.

Work has been crazy, which is nothing new. It's just been harder than usual because, aside from not being able to sleep, I've been getting headaches the past couple days. Today's the first day I haven't had one, and maybe it's because I took some time to detox from everything. Monday night my stomach kept hurting, I didn't even eat dinner. But I'm feeling better now. I just really think that this snow day really needed to happen. The title of this blog is a shout out to Faith Rose and Morgan Francesca. IT's something we always say to each other, but now we have abbreviated it with just RTA haha. We're a mess.

Tuesday was a mess because I had so much live freight, but kept being given all these side projects to do, so I was more than a little frustrated. All the more reason why I think this day needed to happen. I've just been really feeling the work stress lately, probably because things are getting worse and Inventory is right around the corner, so there's also that to deal with. 

The most enthralling thing lately has been me getting back into the Sims. I forgot how relaxing and wonderful it is to come home and destress from everything and just be in a totally different world. So my main Sim, Talvinder Forte, and her husband, Homer, saw their eldest child move out as a teen, buy his own house, and adopt two adorable puppies. Ever since I bought the Cats & Dogs pack (half off too like all the other packs I've gotten haha), I've been obsessed. I made Ambrose a husky named Barbie (Which if you know me, is an actual goal of mine) and a pink (!) poodle named Trixie. That's right, named after Trixie Mattel, you're welcome. She won All Stars 3 and she's in Sims 4 in dog form haha. 

Anyway, so after finding Ambrose the girl of his dreams, I added Natailya to his house, which is a restored diner modeled after the diner on Riverdale that Joseph Birdsong either made or downloaded, and I remodeled it myself, it's super cute. So then I started to mess around playing as Talvinder's long forgotten spicy sister, Torrance. She aged up, moved out of her parents' place, stopped being a meddlesome teenager, and got her life together. She adopted a white greyhound named Abel, and moved into a cute little boathouse (Also made by Joseph Birdsong haha) and she too found the love of her life, who I made based off of a base Sim. His name is Darling Walsh, and he's honestly pretty perfect. They just had twins, Heath and Ximena. And with all that, Talvinder and Homer moved the family into an upscale mansion so that little Ursula and Dodger, along with new family cat Crispy (an ADORABLE white sphynx cat) so all my Sims are in Brindleton Bay. Is it sad that writing all of that was enthralling for me? Oh well. Quality content, as always.

They're calling for more snow this weekend, so the Scooby Doo party is up in there air now. And I even bought this amazing magnifying glass that's also a flashlight for the party. It might happen Friday instead, but only time will tell. Also, I finished Season Six of Modern Family so now I don't know what to do for when I go to bed haha.

The audiobook for Sever is finally out!! Took long enough haha, but I'm so excited to have it out on Audible, Amazon, and iTunes. I bought the iTunes version because I'm forever trash for myself, but I'm super proud to finally have it on audiobook. Ugh. Things are looking up.

Always running that ass,

-- Justin

Grapes & Queso

| Now Playing: Be Brave by The Fosters Cast |

I know it was just a moment ago
When we stepped out on this road
But now I can't imagine love without you here
So hold my heart, though you're far away
It's not the end, but one more day
Until we make it through, know that I love you

I will be brave,
I will be strong,
Nothing can tear us apart.
Just one more step,
Just one more breath,
For you I will,
I will be brave

We live because we love,
We love 'cause we belong,
Yes I swear,
Oh you healed the scars that never felt a wound,
And we'll never need their rules.
To guide the way,
Love will light the day.
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So I've pretty much had both Love Will Light The Day and Be Brave stuck in my head since the last blog haha. Wednesday, they both came on shuffle when I was in the back room tending to my bins and I was like yaaaasssss. And I've been waking up with first Love Will Light The Day stuck in my head and then the past couple days its changed to Be Brave, so yeah haha. Maybe it was fueled by all the posts on social media that I've seen about The Fosters 100th episode being filmed or whatever, but I've been jamming to those emotional bops lately.

Work was been just a lot lately. I know I'm not trying to focus on the stress and work related things of that nature, but it's just been a lot. Tensions are really high, people are fed up, people are upset, it's just been a lot. I was just thankful to have Wednesday to cater to my bins to be honest. It was the one day I didn't have to run obscene amounts of freight. Thank God I have Faith Rose there, literally wouldn't know what to do without her there haha. I stayed after Thursday to help her with Cheese, and then Friday, they tell us we can't keep all of our overtime, even though the incentive for this week was we could get overtime. Go figure.

So since Scooby Doo night was postponed, I suggested to Allen that we go see Love, Simon on Saturday, so that's what we did. We both were hoping the other wanted to see an earlier showtime, which worked out perfectly haha. We had to leave as soon as I got to his place because my laundry ended up taking so damn long, but we got to the theater with time to spare. The movie was so damn cute, I can't even. I really wish I had had a movie like Love, Simon when I was growing up. They explored a lot with what it feels like to be gay and not tell anyone, so I commend them for that. All in all, it was beautiful film. A way better experience than that of Call Me By Your Name. Plus there was a lot of theater class scenes and Allen was living and basically Ms. Albright in the film was Allen haha. She was the star, to be Pocahonest.

Then we were starving so we went to get something to eat. Texas Roadhouse was way too long of a wait so we went to Red Robin, where we had a good time, despite it being really busy and the services a little wonky because of it. But we were together so there wasn't any complaints on that end haha. We were supposed to be hanging out with Amanda and CJ at the house, which is where we went after dinner, but they never showed or anything, so Allen and I had our own night in. Watched The Lizzie McGuire Movie and High School Musical and lived every part of our best gay life haha. He also randomly decided to try something knew while we were eating tortilla chips with queso as well as some grapes to dip the grapes in queso and bitch. That combo? LIVING. It was so damn good, we kept eating the grapes with queso for the rest of the night haha. We're honestly icons.

We had our romantic night together, which was super nice, and then were both loopy heading to bed haha. Then this morning we just had wonderful in bed conversations like we usually do and I headed home and here I am. Did a little bit more writing like I did Friday, but I'm feeling a little creatively drained for some reason. Maybe it's because I wrote that chapter in Stiles' Anatomy, but who can never be sure. I'm honestly just gonna chill today I think. Maybe hit the treadmill a little later in the day, but chilax sounds like a plan right now.

Always up for some grapes and queso,

-- Justin

Flake Off

| Now Playing: Vroom Vroom by Charli XCX |

Let's ride,
Let's ride,
Let's ride,
Let's ride.

Lavender Lamborghini, 
Roll up in a blue bikini,
Bitches on the beaches, 
Looking' super cute and freaky,
All my friends are princesses, 
We keep it whipped and creamy,
Ice cubes on our tongues 
Because we like to keep it freezy.
Bubblegum pink Ferrari, 
Yeah I'm so bossy,
Speeding' like Alonso 
Just to crash your party,
People are going loco when I'm pullin' up, 
Take your puppy,
Don't think about consequences 
'Cause they're never gonna stop me.

All my life, I've been waiting for a good time,
A good time.
All my life, I've been waiting for a good time,
A good time.
So let me ride, let me ride.
All my life, I've been waiting for a good time,
A good time.

So let's ride.
Vroom vroom,
Bitches know they can't catch me.
Vroom vroom,
Cute, sexy and my ride sporty.
Vroom vroom,
Those slugs know they can't catch me.
Vroom vroom,
Beep beep,
So let's ride.
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Okay, for real, listen to the song in the NP. Seriously, I've been obsessed. The production of this song is absolutely insane, especially during the chorus. Ugh, it's literally so good. And the title of this blog was something that Faith Rose said randomly Monday to Shanan and it was so funny haha.

Not a whole lot has happened since my last blog. Monday was a weird day at work, only because Warden and DBL have been out, and I stayed after with Faith Rose because they're allowing overtime because the backroom is a mess. But then after work, Allen invited me up, I got way too drunk, and I ended up getting upset haha. Thinking about on it now, it was so stupid, and I was blowing it way out of proportion in my own head. Nothing bad happened, just something that was self-inflicted and really frustrating on my end. Allen was an absolute sweetheart about it, because he is an absolute sweetheart, and I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend to be honest. But we had a good time regardless, and I love spending time with him.

I wasn't really feeling work Tuesday, but I made it through. I ended up taking a nap after work, sleeping in my jacket, and then I went back to bed at around 9:30, and slept all the way until work this morning. I was just in my feels about the whole Monday thing, and I just needed a pick me up.

It came first when I slept so refreshingly last night. The second came when Allen and I were texting this morning, and I told him about me sleeping in my jacket, and he said he did that all the time with the jackets of mine he has but that it couldn't replace sleeping with me. Literally melt my heart haha. Then I told him I was doing the same thing with the sleeping pants he gave me, and we both were just adorable this morning.

Another thing, or really the only other thing, I did was I wrote another chapter in Stiles' Anatomy. Remember that thing I started? Haha. AO3 is a wonderful place, and I was so looking forward to posting another chapter. I've just been feeling it lately, and I needed to churn out another chapter.

Ooh, I also bought all my items for my Velma outfit for this weekend! Thank God for Amazon to be honest, because I bought everything but my pants there. The shorts I bought I actually found online at work, so that worked out. I'm super excited about the get together, I just hope that because it's also St. Patrick's Day that it doesn't get cancelled. I guess we'll see!

I'm just feeling really good today, and in such good spirits and such a different mood than the one I was in Monday, and yeah, I'm still a little worried about it, but I'm not going to let it get me down, and I'm striving to do better. I bought some new pants yesterday, a size down from my regular ones and they didn't fit. Bought another size down today, and they fit perfectly! So I've basically dropped two pant sizes, and I'm super proud of myself. Making better eating choices and hitting the treadmill as hard as I have been, is really helping with my outlook. Here's hoping it keeps going well!

Flaking off the negativity,

-- Justin

Season's Blessings

| Now Playing: High Society by Betty Who |

Look it's almost morning,
Baby turn your collar up.
There ain't nobody dancing,
Who looks better down and out on their luck.
Run away to a little place with me,
Where everybody thinks we're royalty,
Think of how easy life could be.
Run away to a place that isn't far,
Forget the jet, call us a car,
It doesn't matter where we are.

Won't you, carry me away,
After endless ballroom dreams?
With you, starting every day,
We'll be high society.
We'll drink, Chardonnay through the day,
'Cause we say so.
A silk lapel, suits you well,
Baby you know.
With you, each and every day,
We'll be high society.
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BAM. Probably another short blog in the works for today, but honestly, what's new? Just wanted to pop on here and post a little update I guess haha. I thought that the Scooby Doo party was still in the works for Friday, but that didn't end up happening. Which I didn't know until after I bought a bunch of Fred clothes because there was no time for me to do a gender bent Velma. But it works out that it's actually happening next weekend because I'll have time to plan out my Velma outfit now haha.

So after work Friday, I just ended up hanging around. Did some very minuscule writing in my Grey's Anatomy x Teen Wolf fanfiction haha, might update a chapter of it real soon. I don't know, I was just feeling the Sterek feels I guess. Then yesterday morning, I was fully ready for Benzo and Allen to meet, so that was happening. Allen texted me and said something about me driving up there and we could drive back down together since we were going back to his place after anyway, which was funny because I was going to suggest the same thing haha. Great minds think alike. So I headed up there, we drank a little bit, hung out with West while he watched The Good Doctor. Then we headed down to Smokey Bones and got our table and then Benzo finally joined us. They got a long great, not that I was worried. They got on really well and that made me happy because I really care about him and it's important for her to like him and everything just for my peace of mind haha. I even found out that Allen knows about Milly the puppet and I literally about cried that he knew that because she's such an obscure reference that Benzo and I talk in all the time, it made my heart sing.

After dinner we went back to Allen's place, and just hung out with West instead of getting together with Allen's co-workers like we were going to. We drank some more, watched SNL, and then went to bed, but after Allen showed me this hilarious parody of the Blair Witch Project starring Scooby Doo characters, literally a mess haha. And this morning, we just hung out for a little bit before I came home, and here we are haha.

The title of this blog comes from what Allen thought I said on the ride back to Blacksburg when I said "peace and blessings" to something, and he thought I said the title haha. Good times. There was also a lot of jokes about getting plowed and the little sayings that both of us say all the time.

I'm still waiting on my audiobook to be "cleared" for publication from ACX, so I'm literally just waiting on them now that the cover is finalized and uploaded and everything. I just really want to get Sever out there as many places and in as many ways as I possibly can.

Blessing this season of television,

-- Justin

Tasting

| Now Playing: Paris In The Rain by Lauv |

All I know is, mmm mmm mmm.
We could go anywhere, we could do,
Anything girl whatever the mood, we're in.
Yeah all I know is, mmm mmm mmm.
Getting lost late at night under stars,
Finding love standing right where we are.
Your lips, they pull me in the moment,
You and I alone and,
People may be watching, I don't mind.

'Cause anywhere with you feels right,
Anywhere with you feels like,
Paris in the rain, Paris in the rain.
We don't need a fancy town,
Or bottles that we can't pronounce,
'Cause anywhere babe,
Is like Paris in the rain.
When I'm with you, when I'm with you.
Paris in the rain, Paris in the rain.

I look at you now and I want this forever,
I might not deserve it but there's nothing better.
Don't know how I ever did it all without you,
My heart is about to, about to jump out of my chest.
Feelings they come and they go, that they do.
Feelings that come and they go, not with you.
The late nights and the street lights and the people,
Look at me girl and the whole world could stop.
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So yeah, it's been another week. These blogs are getting thinner and thinner as the weeks get on, but honestly, it's whatever. Shout out to the hilarious sayings that this blog was going to take, such as "Bible Option", "What's The Shit?" (A play on what's the sitch from Kim Possible haha) and "Switch To Dionysus." All are from Allen Saturday night when he was hysterically tired and kept saying the most ridiculous but hilarious things haha. Also, shout out to I Wanna Boi by PWR BTTM for being the song for the NP until Lauv took over. It totally would have been if I had posted during the weekend haha.

The rest of last week was admittedly lackluster, but Saturday was pretty great. Firstly, I wasn't planning on sleeping so late, but I didn't wake up until 12:30. Oops! And then almost immediately, Allen texted me, having only recently awoken himself, and asked if I wanted to go to a wine tasting with him. Obviously, as I've never been to one, I was so damn ready for it. So I literally, threw on some clothes and headed up to his place. The first place we went to was New River Vineyard and ugh, it was so amazing. They had like 12 different wines, if not more, for us to savor. It was just a wonderful experience. But I got a little more drunk than I probably should have because I hadn't eaten anything haha. But Allen and I each bought our favorite of the wines in bottle form and he asked if I wanted to go to this other one, and duh, we went haha.

And it was great! Not as good in my opinion as far as the wine, but we met this couple, Melissa and Chad, during it, so that was an adventure. They were like early 40's I'd guess, but after Allen and I bought a bottle each, we sat down with them and drank wine and go to know each other. They got a little personal with their daughter, but hey, it was a good time.  After that, Allen and I got dinner, tried to watch Fences at his apartment, and then just went to sleep. I had to work Sunday, so I had to get what little sleep I got.

Monday, at work, was drama FILLED. Alex obliterated that morning meeting, hunty. And of course, Warden reacted absolutely ridiculously, but what can you do? My day off was consumed by not really doing a whole lot haha. I had some really disappointed Taco Bell because they got my order wrong TWICE, but at least I finished a scene in chapter ten of Book Two haha.

Other than that, not a whole lot has happened. Today (Thursday) I finally got a frame for the picture Allen gave me for my birthday! It was so super cute of him to give me that as a birthday present. Work has just been sort of crazy lately, frightful, if you will, and today all I did was mods pretty much. But we had our bonus luncheon so that was fun. I'm just so damn full haha.