| Now Playing: The Last Time by Taylor Swift |
Find myself at your door,
Just like all those times before.
I'm not sure, how I got there,
All roads they lead me here.
I imagine you are home,
In your room all alone.
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything is better.
And right before your eyes, I'm breaking.
No past, no reasons why.
Just you and me.
This is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list.
This is the last time I'm asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.
Find yourself at my door,
Just like all those times before.
You wear your best apology,
But I was there to watch you leave.
All the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again.
Disappear when you come back,
Everything is better.
And right before your eyes, I'm aching.
No past, nowhere to hide.
Just you and me.
This is the last time you say that I've got it wrong,
This is the last time I say it's been you all alone.
This is the last time I let you in my door,
This is the last time, I won't hurt you anymore.
This is the last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you this.
This is the last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you this.
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Surprisingly, I didn't get woken up this morning by any sort of home renovating that is going on currently. And ya girl slept in until noon again because apparently I has a problem. It felt good to sleep in though, because life goes back to normal on Monday (It's currently Sunday when I'm writing this) and I'm still trying to prepare myself for what's bound to happen tomorrow. I'm not even remotely ready for it, sis.
Today was sort of my day that I really wanted to be productive and do more writing, but it just ended up being my Lays Potato Chips day. I think I was just sort of tapped out from how much I wrote both during work Friday and then Friday night, as well as almost ALL day Saturday. I sat down to write, but it just wasn't happening. So I fell down a hole of watching videos and Tumblr and stuff like that, and Taylor Swift was COMMENTING on people's livestreams on Instagram. Like, what? I even went live a few times while playing some Splatoon, but no Taylor. I wouldn't expect any less haha.
But the renovating was happening pretty much throughout the whole day. I've never in my life, throughout the various stages of growing up and multiple times of living here seen the hallway leading through the laundry room to my grandparents bedroom empty. The hutch has always been there, so that was a trip to see. I had to help Ian hold up one of the boards up to the ceiling, but yeah. Fun times here lately.
Then, my grandma wanted KFC for dinner, and me to go get it of course, but ours is renovating, so that was a no go. We opted for pizza, and that was...something. Firstly, I got there around the time that they said it would be ready, so I waited. And my ear acted up but GIRL, while I was waiting, this hottie came in, lord Jesus. Dirty blond hair, scruffy, just ugh. He was so hot. Anyway, I kept catching him looking at me and I was like GIRL LET'S MAKE THIS HAPPEN. But they called his order first, and he headed out. Shout out to Matt because, girl. Thank you for giving me a view.
I came home, watched a few videos, and played Splatoon and livestreamed on Instagram. And now, I'm watching this very inspiring interview of Claire Wineland on Shane Dawson's podcast, and it just wants me to be a better person? She has Cystic Fibrosis, and I don't know. She's just a super inspiring person, and I love her. It really makes me want to work out and just live my best life? So maybe after this podcast, I'll get to work on that, before I take a shower and everything.
Yeah, that didn't happen. I mean, I super wanted to, but effort and Lays Potato Chips and exhaustion. Heading back to work wasn't too bad, had my coffee in my new black 30oz at the ready with me so it wasn't too bad. It was actually a pretty good day work wise. There wasn't that much freight, but I kept getting pulled in about a million different direction because it felt like no one was there, several DM's were either off or called in, so it was just chaotic in that respect, but ya know. And I made my signature face (The one I make when I don't like something haha) to Seanathan Michael Preston (I added a new name to him because I felt like I needed more syllables, plus it sounds like I'm chastising him so it works) and he hurled over in a fit of laughter, so that was fun. But also, home girl got the T. There's so many moves happening, and possibly ventures of less stress for me that I'm really hoping work out, but ya know. We shall see, I suppose.
During work, Benzo messaged me about going to bingo after work, but a bitch broke. But she was willing to offer the funds needed for both of us to play, so I was actually really excited to go. The first (and only) time that we have gone to the Moose, we had a great time playing bingo, it was a great experience, so I was looking forward to having something to look forward to. After work, I started on my boosts since I knew that we were heading over to the Moose soon, and I wanted to get in as much as possible before we left. So once she was here, we hit up the Moose and didn't have too long before the Early Bird game started. It was a blast, as usual. We even saw the sweet old lady that helped us get the hang of everything the last time and I just called her Gloria Gladys betwixt Benzo and myself haha. Basically, I'm always a mess. But anyway, bingo was so much fun. and Benzo won AGAIN. And what did ya girl win? Nadda. Nothing. Zilch. Zero. I was like girl, we've only come here twice, and Benzo's ass won BOTH times?
I was like really bitch? Really? Haha, but all jokes aside, I was super happy that she won, especially since she was paying for me, and she won back most of what it cost for us to get to play. A good time was just had by all. After that, we came back to the house and chilled for a little bit. OH. And I showed her that damn vine that's been plaguing my ass since the other night I watched a compilation and it's been screwing me up ever since. If I can find that damn thing, I'll insert it here. But literally any sort of high pitched humming triggers my fat ass haha. I'm literally the messiest of messes.
I LITERALLY DON'T KNOW WHY BUT IT MAKES ME LAUGH SO HARD 👹👹👹👹 (For anyone / everyone who doesn't know, that's the emoji I use for my signature HEHEHE laugh. It pretty much sounds like Toad getting a speed boost in Mario Kart tbh). Also, the lady in this vine looks like her name could truly be Gloria Gladys. God love her.
Anyway, so after that spectacle, I did something that I've been thinking of doing for a while now, and that's sort of decluttering my life in certain ways. That night's main focus was makeup, and I sent Benzo home with my collection of Jeffree Star cosmetics. I love them so dearly, but honestly, I added it up, and I've spent a collective total of 1309 dollars for the makeup. That's literally SO INSANE when I think of it. I wanted it so desperately, and I still love his stuff, but I just need to focus on things that I really need. Like a new computer, and dedicating more time to writing, and I just don't have the time that I would like to have to play with makeup. No matter how much I wish I did. So she headed out after we chilled for a bit, and I was so tired. I don't think I've mentioned yet, but Sunday I slept horribly, probably because I was coming back from sleeping in during the weekend, and yeah. Monday night was a repeat of this. I finally started Season 3 of That '70s Show over the weekend, so that's been great, but I just haven't been able to get some much needed rest.
So I woke up yesterday morning, just blah. Not in a mood sense, but just in a general attitude I guess? Like I was just so tired, and needed coffee and lots of it. Honestly, just God bless my 30 oz Ozark. Shout out to those who count. Anyway, work wasn't too bad. Just a lot going on, but I got all my processes done. The new and "improved" (a word which here means lacking actual improvement) price changes screen came down, and all of us were flustered as hell because the managers (And that gotdamn Paul) in charge of learning it so that they can teach us aren't supposed to learn about it until Friday. So basically, it dropped early, and everything was in disarray. But mine personally wasn't too bad. That wasn't the case for today, but ya know. As far as the evening, it went alright. Ian is STILL trying to get this work in the kitchen done (A two day job has now, as of Wednesday, reached Day Five) so that's been annoying. BUT GIRL, WE HAD A TIME DURING LUNCH LET ME SPILL THE TEA.
Okay, so me and the crew, aka the usual LunchCrew2K17, headed back over to Applebee's, because we've let enough time past to where we were ready to indulge in that Double Bacon Chicken Sandwich because bae and we thought us lot were gonna have a great time. But no, that's not exactly what happened. So our server was Corinne (I only know her name because of what happened today, but also we've had her a lot), and we got our allotted beverage, and it was straight, girl. I was MIFFED over the edge, mainly because I hadn't eaten yet for the day, and it hit me like a brick wall. I truly was no more good (Shout out to my angel Jane for that phrase, I miss you dearly, love). But anyway, we ordered off the express lunch, because bae, and Corinne didn't give us a timer. They always have before, even when we've had to ask for it, and they cut some time off for forgetting. Well, we asked her for the timer, and she was like, in a subtle snippy way, "Well, I put in the order at 11:22." Okay, but that's so not the point, we ask for the timer to help YOU, so everyone knows how long it took so YOU don't have to pay for our lunches. But because of her dig, we let it go. Well, then 11:38 rolls around, and she brings Pam and Destiny's food. Corinne then says "I'll have to bring y'all mayonnaise because the kitchen didn't have time to put it on the sandwiches." Girl...it's already been over the 12 minutes in y'alls advertised "12 minutes or its free" that's explained in the express lunch menu. So after we're all like literally what the fuck, Corinne comes back with the mayo (Pam also had to ask for more fries because they LITERALLY gave her like 8, it was sad) and Pam's fries and Pam speaks up (I totally would have as well, to back her up, but honestly, I was so far gone #lightweight) and says "Some of us don't think we should have to pay, only because of the over 12 minutes thing" and Corinne goes, in the most aggressive, nastiest tone, "THAT'S because I was getting the condiments and extra fries." OHHHHHHHH. It's like that is it? Like, it was so unfathomable how hateful she was to Pam, I couldn't even, even if I hadn't been Gone Girl. So Pam politely says "We just think the time should be looked at again" and she EVEN MORE HATEFULLY says "I'll GET MY MANAGER". We were all flabbergasted, to be Pocahonest. And she didn't even send a manager, she sent another server, who was deeply apologetic, but ya know. Pam and I contacted Applebee's about it so. It was just so crazy.
After that whole mess, I came home, worked on boosts, played some Splatoon 2, because it's my only aggressive outlet so that's what I did. Went to bed, couldn't sleep, laid there with That '70's Show, the usual. But also, I've been having such fire photos lately?? Like I act like I'm attractive?? I'm gonna showcase these only because when the hell else am I gonna feel like this again? Plus, I've been pretty artsy with my photos lately, so I'll add some of those too. Gotta preserve that shit.
YASS QUEEN, WERK IT! So yeah, supercool. Still had a really hard time sleeping, probably the worst night yet, probably because the last few nights have all been nights of horrible sleep, but ya know, thank God for coffee, is all I can say. I haven't used that damn Reese's creamer since that first day btw haha. I just can't be bothered. But today was a pretty decent day, until the end was sort of chaotic with the price changes, but we'll get there. So the morning was pretty good because I wasn't overrun with freight, so I actually did pretty good as far as that was concerned, but I didn't have a chance to stay in routine. Go figure. But that's because overnight is just broken. During break after the morning meeting, SOMETHING SWIFTY HAPPENED. I knew something was going to happen this week. I was wishing and hoping and praying that it was going to be the reputation track list, but a girl can dream, and keep dreaming. But something amazing did happen! Taylor announced (How, I still don't know?? I just saw it going around Tumblr and saw if it was on YouTube and she uploaded it to her channel so 🤗🤗) that she's going to be releasing HER OWN SOCIAL MEDIA APP. HOW BLESSED ARE WE TO LIVE IN THE AGE OF TAYLOR ALISON MOTHERFUCKING SWIFT.
Literally so blessed. Here's the video and if you listen closely, you can hear me crying yas queen in the background.
I'm legit going to be on Swift Life 25/8. Like, for real. So that was really super exciting to experience today. No firm date on the release of the app, but I'm hoping either before the album or by the album, so let's hope that comes to fruition. Also, she randomly showed up to a fans house today?? How is she an angel?? I just can't with how wonderful she is.
Then, the crew and I decided that, even though Destiny was off today, we wanted to get together for lunch, and obvi we weren't going to go to Applebee's. So Teresa saw this deal going on at Macado's and it was like special prices on their Mexican food items, so that's where we went. I drove, which was a nice change of pace because usually it's always Teresa haha. My car is much dirtier, but I was happy to oblige because Teresa thought she locked her keys in her car, but magically (we think someone saw them on the ground and did this) were in her door just hanging in the lock? Super lucky, but weird. Anyway, we had a wonderful lunch at Macado's, and that Southwestern Quesadilla BITCH. It was so fucking good. Highly recommend. We came back a little late, because traffic, but it's all good. We always have a good time, just a good ole hoot and a holler.
I had price changes in the new screen, and it was weird because they were giving two different products but the same mod location. So after talking about it with Dennis and Shanan, I just left it, because it makes no sense and no one has any answers because no one has been taught on them yet. It's just a messed. I came home, started doing some boosts and playing Splatoon, and then I've been typing up this blog, and talking to Benzo on FaceTime. I did find this website though called Zebit where it's like a buy now, pay later thing, and they HAVE APPLE PRODUCTS. I couldn't get a MacBook, but I thought about getting an Apple Watch to build up my limit, but my card got declined, so I took it as a sign to not go through with it, at least for right now. So now, I'll gonna post this blog, end this call with Benzo, and then it's time to get into bed with That '70s Show. I decided to skip the Season 2 premiere of Riverdale because I had so much to do, and I'll catch it latra.
This has been a bulky blog for once haha. What can I say?
Hopefully, the next couple days leading into the next blog can be as information filled and wonderful. Low key expecting but high key wanting another single to drop from Taylor Friday, but who knows. Also, the song in the NP is such a kick ass song from her Red album. I've been seeing a lot of dislike for it lately, and it was talking about during this week's episode of Swiftcast (A podcast I recently picked back up again) where the creator of that song list from Rolling Stone rating every Taylor song ever was guesting on it, and they don't like that song. IT'S SUCH AN EMOTIONAL BOP LIKE HOW DARE YOU?? But yeah. Hella representing Red up in this bitch. Plus, I've been listening to it lately since seeing this massive dislike. I posted about what I've been seeing about The Last Time on Tumblr and people were like THEY'RE WRONG.
Sorry, I had to haha. I can't say that word without thinking of this orange idiot. Plus, my impression of him is one of my favorite things ever haha. I blame the liberal propaganda (That's one of my favorite things to say in his accent/impression. Ignore this trash). Until next time, holla.
I GOT BINGHOH,
-- Jesse
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