PARCHED

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Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly

You're payin'? 

Is the amount cleanin' you out? 

Am I satisfactory?

Today, 

I'm thinkin' about the things that are deadly

The way I'm drinkin' you down

Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me

Step on the glass, staple your tongue

Bury a friend, try to wake up

Cannibal class, killing the son

Bury a friend, I wanna end me

What do you want from me? 

Why don't you run from me?

What are you wondering? 

What do you know?

Why aren't you scared of me? 

Why do you care for me?

When we all fall asleep

Where do we go?

It's probably

Something that shouldn't be said out loud

Honestly

I thought that I would be dead by now

Calling security

Keeping my head held down

Bury the hatchet or bury a friend right now

For the debt I owe

Gotta sell my soul

‘Cause I can't say no

No I can’t say no

Then my limbs all froze

And my eyes won't close

And I can't say no

I can't say no

Step on the glass, staple your tongue

Bury a friend, try to wake up

Cannibal class, killing the son

Bury a friend, I wanna end me

What do you want from me? 

Why don't you run from me?

What are you wondering? 

What do you know?

Why aren't you scared of me? 

Why do you care for me?

When we all fall asleep

Where do we go?

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Happy February! You know what that means. It’s my birth month so obviously it’s all about me from now on 😂. Kidding, at least low key. I’m just ready for my vacation to get here so I can relax. 

This week has been sort of hard to get through. Not because work is exceptionally bad or anything, it’s just felt like a really long, slow work week. I’m actually starting to get my department back into shape, even though I literally had to throw breakpacks in the bin (which is a no no) just to clean up because I was told I was taking too long. So I guess the beginning of this week has been fairly frustrating. But since coming back from my day off, I’ve been able to work at my own place, do my own thing, keep in my process and routine, so it hasn’t been as bad. I’m slowly but surely getting the breakpacks and the random boxes of stuff just stuffed in boxes out of the bin. It’s a process. They messed up my schedule this weekend, scheduling me yet another Sunday, but I talked to management about it so hopefully they fix that. If not, I’ll just go ahead and “call out” Sunday, even though I’m not available that day. And if they try to point me, I’m fighting the hell that comes with getting it removed. Speaking of work, I reapplied for a Books A Million position, full-time, that I was interested in, so I’m gonna start calling about that next week. Fingers crossed!

FINALLY, after literally forever, I got my W2 Wednesday. Thankfully, I was able to get my W2, filed my taxes while I was on lunch, and was accepted before I even left work, all in one day. I’m not getting back quite as much as last year, but still pretty damn close, and the plan is to save it all. Allen and I are itching to get our own place, and this tax season is really going to help us be able to do that. You know that feeling you get when you’re home, and it’s your day off, and you just decide it’s a chill day and it’s just super relaxing? Lately, my days off, while they’ve been great and I guess pseudo relaxing, there’s just something about being able to relax in your own place, even if your current space feels like home, you know? I just hope we can make it happen this Fall / a little bit before school starts, and we’ll be moved in and ready to go.

My day off this week, Tuesday, was literally completely spent trying to download Sims 4 to my MacBook, and it was a journey. A journey that’s not quite concluded, I might add, because while it took more than 12 hours (I’m not kidding. TWELVE HOURS) to download the game, it only downloaded the base game, so none of the add-ons that I’ve purchased have been downloaded yet. And considering ya boy has bought a lot of Sims 4 dlc, it’s probably going to take another 12 hours for it to be completely finished. Speaking of internet, since Thursday, we’ve been dealing with not having internet. We came home and it just wasn’t working. And it hasn’t been working since. Allen called Sunday and were having someone come out because they don’t really know what is causing it. So hopefully that gets sorted out soon because my reupload of my book got rejected for a small detail, and I need the internet to fix said detail so I can upload it again and be square. I don’t think I’ll have enough time to have a copy of my book by Writer’s Wednesday, but at least I can bring my proof copy if I want.

Friday was a pretty great day. Luckily, work has been pretty good that past several days, so when Allen was saying we were grabbing dinner with Kelly, I was looking forward to it. But it turned into hanging out with a friend if there’s from high school, and even though I had to work Saturday, I was down for it. Only thing is, is we ended up staying quite a while and drinking quite a bit, so I ended up having to call out, but it wasn’t a big deal. I had been itching for a weekend off, because I have to work literally every weekend, so honestly it just gave me an excuse to allow myself to have a weekend off. It was a lot of fun hanging out with them, and we ended up getting home super late, and then sleeping in until noon the next day, and Saturday was basically spent recovering. And Sunday was spent wallowing in no internet, but we made the best of it. Got sushi, and then we sat down and FINALLY started Modern Family because I’ve been bitching that Allen and I should start it, since he hasn’t seen it all the way through so that was lovely.

And the title of this blog is from last Sunday. I don’t think I mentioned it but Fox’s Rent Alice, starring the one and only Valentina, aired. It was fairly okay, nothing too crazy. But Vanessa Hudgens as Maureen was probably the highlight. And when she was doing the whole Jump Over The Moon bit, the way she said parched had me and Allen rolling. Then we said it in Milly’s voice, then naming her Moolly, and it spiraled from there haha. I’m hoping for a low key week tbh. I’m gonna try to work through until next Sunday, but it depends on how work goes tbh. Also, I really wanna do a Sims let’s play. Like really bad. And play Splatoon! Joseph Birdsong got me fucked up. AND I AM LITERALLY OBSESSED with Billie’s new song. Ugh. So good. 

Until next time,

— Justin